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2010-07-23T12:09:00.002+08:00

Moved to elsewhere.

moved away from all the privy eyes. friends only in the new blog, just ask me for it=))

2010-07-19T13:31:00.002+08:00

bad hard disk corruption. technician managed to save data, except for the photos. darn! I was wishing the photos and music folders will be safe.

maybe it serves as a closure of sort. and the start of a new beginning. a clean new slate. letting it go, was probably the best way out.

to my past, thank you for everything. you have been a great part of my life, and I will always remember the good memories that we shared. you seemed to be leading a pretty good life now, so I just want to wish you all the best ahead.

and to my future, thank you for all the lovely times thus far, and lets hope that we will walk through the obstacles ahead together. you are the reason I smile before sleep each night ever since that day. thank you.

2010-07-15T23:54:00.002+08:00

time and again. unconsciously or consciously, mistakes are being repeated.

but will there be a different ending? I do hope it is that of a typical fairy tale.

have thought through long and hard about what I will do in the following semesters. and looking back, it is so different from the plan I had before.

I dont want to fight a losing battle.
I will surrender and exit.
I know I have tried. it was just useless, one against the hundreds.
Subconsciously, this issue has never left me.

there was a time I was so determined to do something big to prove myself. and I had big plans.
and then, I realised I dont want to waste time proving myself to anybody. there are friends who will always be there for me, and there is certainly no need for me to prove my capability to them.

it will be the last event.

2010-07-08T10:05:00.002+08:00

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2010-07-07T15:27:00.002+08:00

down the same old path, gaining and losing at the same time.

Just when I thought I had no way out of the mess and the only door available to me before was shut closed, another door open.

to some, they will say that God will never leave anybody in a dead end. master of our destiny I would say. Whatever we do now will affect what comes along later.

I asked someone before. a very important person to me. "If you had a chance to get one questioned answered, what would you ask?" His reply? Simple. "will I die a happy or sad man?"

Set me thinking. whether or not we die happy or sad, depends very much on what we are doing now. I guess if you have made all the right decisions, are happy with your life, we will die happy.

the irony lies in nobody is perfect, and that we are bound to make mistakes in life that we will regret in the future. So if we look back when we are on our deathbed, we will more often than not, die a sad man. So we should look forward? Nonsense, when you are dying, there is no forward so as to speak. Coming to terms with our mistakes seems to be the best solution.

I ain't perfect. I think I have made loads of mistakes in my entire life. But staying at home these days, really allow me to ponder over such things. there is this indescribable feeling when I face up to my mistakes, and really get over it. try it!

Time waits for nobody. dont get burdened. get back on your feet if you fall. continue with the crowd albeit a slower pace. dont stop. it will be harder to get the momentum back up again. till your injury heals, suffice with a slower pace.

Life is wonderful. although there are 'fuck my life' moments, I would say I am pretty much enjoying my life now. thank you baby:)

hard to love and to commit when you know that there is no reciprocation, or for the matter, acknowledgement. there comes a time whereby the entire passion fizzles out. and I think that time has come.

2010-07-03T21:04:00.003+08:00

it just seemed like a whirlwind this week.

out on tuesday with you at vivo, and i got a new book to read! spent a great time chatting that day=) one more step closer to knowing you..

photoshoot on wednesday, argh, I hate it. photos will be uploaded on the website pretty soon, so will keep everybody updated! one vote a day per finalist, so help me vote yeah? there are prizes for you if the person you vote ( me!) wins!

thursday was out with the psych girls! lovely time spent with them! miss them so much, all the lunches at canteen A and the fun and the laughter! criticizing new moon together for the cheesy-ness, reminiscing little mermaid, waiting almost forever for the kfc and pizza hut delivery, laughing in the sauna room with this absolutely amusing girl dancing outside (she didnt know we can see her, and we wrote 'nice dance' on the door with the vapour on it)..

friday, work at kent ridge park! the little kids were awesomely cute! they are really affectionate, and they practically hug me everytime i ask them to gather! ok, they can only reach my legs -.- sadly, it rained pretty bad, so the kids had to go off soon=(( pretty shagged from the outing on thurs, and waking up at 530am doesnt really help matters, so I am really sorry to ZHEN and JOE!! sorry! meet up soon again alright?

got drenched in the rain, and it was just freaking cold. woke up on sat with my head spinning real bad, and couldnt go for the scouts camp in the end=( but meeting up with you just now sure brought a smile to my otherwise sickly day=)

july is here already, time passes really fast.. i cant help dreading everything..

2010-06-28T00:16:00.003+08:00

have been enjoying my time being unemployed so far!

but with money only going out, I need some coming in!

Joined this Watsons YOU Awards, Sunny Smiles Category. hahahha, went for the judging that day, and I remembered I was super disturbed, that the ladies there all so pretty!! was thinking I was in the wrong place! Lucky your sms calmed me down!

And I got in! so now, one of the 5 finalists! All down to popularity votes already! photoshoot soon, then voting will start!! Targetting the prize money of $2000!! so all my dearest friends, must help me vote! will give you all the URL soon, when it is ready!

in about 2 months, school will start, and you will be gone for months=(( I will miss you.

and I realise with sis and I staying in Hall, and my bro most likely busy with school, MR MAX would have no one to take care of him. Dad says he will send him away. but no, I dont want! He is my bestest friend, always there for me, when no one else was.

No matter how stupid, silly, ugly, irritating he is, I still love him alot. I will miss him too=(( I dont want max to leave as well!!

2010-06-24T15:30:00.002+08:00

They dont know how long it takes,
waiting for a love like this.
everytime we say goodbye,
i wish we had a one more kiss.
I'll wait for you, I'll promise you.
I will~

2010-06-22T12:58:00.002+08:00

i want to thank all the lovelies around me during the exam period!

whether it was to just sit beside me while I cry my heart out,
whether it was to give me a hug when I was done,
whether it was to give me a card before her lecture to cheer me up,
whether it was to get me chocolates while we are studying,
whether it was to pass me tissues when I start crying again,
whether it was to forfeit sleep time and accompany me as I toss and turn,
whether it was to have our daily lunch, talking about everything under the sun before studying,
whether it was to have almost daily smses, asking whether I was fine and ok,
whether it was to go all the way to vivo to get a chocolate cake because I wanted a sweet ending.

you lovelies really gave me the strength to continue studying no matter what was happening to me.

and i am thankful for that. I did managed to pull up my cgpa despite everything, and I really have to thank you all for supporting me throughout. You know who you are=D

2010-06-21T12:57:00.002+08:00

ahh, fuck.

I cant get that long mc I wanted. anyone has any recommendations, for a place that will give mc easily?? I dont want to go back to work at all. Sometimes, I really feel like just quitting immediately. give the damn penalty of about $500 bucks. so sian of this damn job=((

save me somebody! arghhh!!!

2010-06-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

spent my entire day out today! toy story 3! the whole cinema was filled with people my age!! so basically, all those kids then, decided to catch toy story 3, despite it being a kiddy movie or whatever. it was great! really, should catch it asap!

shocked that I didnt do any shopping in the end! hahahaha, tempted to buy, but weekends, fitting rooms so freaking crowded, I gave up almost immediately! lucky I was in comfortable shoes, so definitely no problem walking up and down orchard!

went to rubi and tried looking for that pair of shoes! there was a pair of ballet flats, same flowery design, but I wanted the exact same shoes!! so sad that I cant find it! up till now, I am still mourning=((

you know, the one thing that stands in your way to happiness, is yourself. we are our greatest hurdle, obstacle. No one can deny you from being happy. each day still passes, whether we are happy or sad, so knowing that, might as well spend each day as a happy person. Life is so unexpected, I want to die a happy person. I am happy now, truly am.

2010-06-18T22:13:00.002+08:00

hahaha, I was so sick of working, I decided, to just take long term mc. yes, I know, I am scamming them, but hey, they have been exploiting us!! so basically, I am unemployed, again-.-

yes, I am trying to look for a job again. now, just relax.

can start jio-ing me for dinners and lunches, shopping trips, whatever not! before i start work again!!

2010-06-16T00:00:00.003+08:00

To you,

thank you for being there for me, rain or shine.

thank you from sheltering me from the blistering heat, and the biting cold.

thank you for brightening up my life.

thank you for walking a great part of my journey with me.

thank you for preventing obstacles from getting in my way.

I do love you alot, you know? and I definitely will miss you when you are gone. You are irreplaceable in my heart. Seeing you each day never fail to bring a smile to my face.

I really will miss you.

Goodbye, my dear shoes. dont worry, I will hold on to you, till I find the exact design again.
loveliest pair of shoes ever. comfortable=D looking for one with the same style, no need be same design, coz this pair of shoes never ever gave me a blister. love this pair!

Mr sunflower! it really brightens up the room you know? coz of the colour and everything! seeing it, just makes you smile at it, like a silly goofy girl. thank you!

I just printed for resignation letter. yep, I am tendering it tomorrow. Long hours, overworked, and underpaid. why subject myself to such crazy work?? looking forward to end of month, then I can finally be rid of this hell job.

I miss my jie mei clique! Meet up please! and discuss the modules that we want to take! so we can all take together!!

2010-06-10T01:24:00.002+08:00

fickle-minded, are we not?

was chatting with my colleague recently, turns out that his ex has already gotten attached. they broke up less than a month ago, and my colleague was the one who initiated. upon hearing the news, he was devastated, and he cried. He is a nice person, but somehow, I can't bring myself to sympathize with him.

sure, she took such a short while to 'get over' a 4 year relationship, but you are the one who initiated. and after all the crying and everything, she decides that you hurt her bad, and that she should move on, that there are better things in the world for her. she moved on, but you are just being a complete asshole, still go be emo and everything.

censored loads already. feel so indignant about it, just had to rant.

just watched a drama, "I will love you and spoil you for the rest of my life". I will not be skeptical about it -_-

2010-06-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

i enjoyed my off day yesterday=DD botanical gardens. ages since I have been there! nice and surreal in the night.

missing all my dearest friends now! hope to see you all real soon! I have no idea, but somehow, my off days, seem so packed always!

it is amazing how so much can happen in that short span. hahaha. someone told me before, "your holidays sure going to be an eventful one!" Right on.

amazing how determination can drive one to something previously unattainable.

my megawatt, and laughter are back. no longer a facade.

2010-06-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

Putting it down was so much easier than lugging it around.

I never thought I will experience it again.

2010-06-01T10:03:00.002+08:00

the group photos taken during the trip!

I will get my camera soon. i promise!

I realised, life is so unexpected; I should treasure what is in front of me now. and not harp about the past; living in the past. I guess everything that has happened, happens for a reason. for what, I dont really know. I will learn from it. Gone were the days I cry to sleep. Gone were the days I think about someone who doesnt think of me. been smiling to sleep recently.

Megawatt smile me is back!

2010-05-30T16:56:00.004+08:00

Wheee! back from Desaru!

28th May,

gathered at changi point ferry terminal at 8am, turned out that we could only board around 11 plus. argh, I could have slept a long while more! nua-ed around till it was finally time, and boarded the bumboat around 1?? an 1 hour journey, and we reach the terminal at malaysia! cabbed to the the town, and boy, it was great you know??

lunch at a restaurant before picking up our bikes at 4? went to the ostrich farm. LOL, it reared the baby ostriches in a pen, and just above the pen they wrote "ostrich satay, ostrich burger, ostrich teppanyaki ..." the babies practically grew up, knowing that they will be killed for the meat! perfect timing for us! one of the ostriches laid an egg! and we saw them mating too! gross, and the guys claimed that the male ostrich was making "moaning noises" -_-'

squeezed in the mini van and set off for the resort! packed dinner, oh man=(( cycled to the other resort and got more beer. after snooker, it was back to the room, and havoc! drank beer, pillow fights and whatever you get, with a bunch of friends with no burden at all!

29th may,

it was the beach day! hahaha, went go-kart as well, and it was exhilarating the first try! and the following tries, you just try not to let go of the accelerator at all! had a mini crash, but it was hilarious because eng how was just so frustrated to overtake me!

games on the sand, minimal, because it was burning hot! moved our games into the sea! laughed loads! decided to go on the banana boat, and the 4 guys insisted on the wildest rides the person could give us! but we fell once only=( though it should be funny, because it was like a domino effect; thrown off the boat altogether! hahahaha.

night time, and it was a good dinner. there was a wedding at the same venue, and I think we totally embarrassed ourselves! bought like 12 bottles of beer, and shared among the 5, totally forgetting about the mineral water for the next day. drank and made a loud din, people 2 rooms away could hear the glass bottle spinning.

30th May,

woke at an unearthly hour, 5.20am, to set off asap. first time, seeing a sunrise, and it was at the beach! it was amazing you know? pretty lucky to see that, at first so disheartened because we thought the sun was already up, but hidden by the clouds. started the 30+ km cycling to the town again. lost control of the bike once, and was nearly flung out; 2 near crashes due to me not paying attention=( and of all things, i had to kena a freaking toe cramp. *&%$#@

aching all over now, must have got to do with the alcohol we had in 2 days too. argh, but it was still a fun trip. i guess the people really makes the difference? all the suaning of each other, squeezing on the bed, the snoring and whatever. was well taken care of by the guys, so no worries=D

back to work tmr, more standing, so i think my ache will take a long while to go away=(( and one really never knows what life has in store for us. all the unexpected.

2010-05-19T09:51:00.002+08:00

never been so timely.

Work has been good so far (actually thats because we have yet to open =X). what matters to me the most is not so much of the pay, but the long hours!

kept busy, so barely have time to think about other stuffs, like the fact that results will be out on 27th may!

I never realised how prideful I am. that I am so easily swayed, and throw in the towel.

you were never supportive of us and them. all the nonsense about us being too young, too naive. arguments everyday or as long as we went out with them. sick of crying and arguing with you. and then I made the silliest mistake ever. and no, the arguments still continue, even though I have parted with him, the arguments are still ongoing. I chased away someone who is so important to me; my folly.

dealing all of this myself. stop all the arguments, please. I cant take it anymore.

2010-05-14T22:48:00.001+08:00

a facade no less. was it all for naught?

2010-05-13T12:16:00.000+08:00

forkandspoon

2010-05-10T12:08:00.002+08:00

second chances.

we make mistakes. nobody's free from it.

biggest regret. hope to rectify.

ready to do so. are you?

2010-05-09T21:44:00.002+08:00

take it away.

take my emotions away.

the heartache every second will not be missed.

tired and exhausted.

numb me.

2010-05-06T22:34:00.003+08:00

Have you been through those times, and you tell yourself "I am simply not ready"?

Like when a paper is close, and you find out that you arent prepared for it, and you tell yourself "I am simply not ready".

Like when a loved one passes on, and you tell yourself "you arent ready to accept it".

Like when work demands something more of you, and you tell yourself again that "you arent ready for it".

If we keep telling ourselves that, we are really never going to be ready. And we always tend to give up when we tell ourselves that.

to cope with the changes in life, we have to put in the effort, to get ourselves prepared and ready.

Like when a paper is close, and you feel that you arent ready to take the paper, you take a deep breath, tell yourself, that there is no other time to study already, so you prepare and chiong the paper and jolly well study hard for the paper. if you are going to tell yourself you arent ready, you never will be.

Like when a loved one passes on, you tell yourself that it is alright to mourn but life goes on as usual. the world continues even without you, so move or you will be left behind. so mourn for a reasonable period, and pick yourself. if you are going to tell yourself you arent ready, you will never walk out of the shadow.

Like when work demands something more of you, you tell yourself that it is part and parcel of everything, by overcoming that challenge, and doing it well, you are getting yourself ready for a promotion. if you are going to tell yourself you arent ready, you are giving up an opportunity that you are likely to regret, and it will never come back again.

Its ok if you take time to get ready. What matters is that you dont give up on yourself.

There is no such thing as being not ready. One takes the effort to be ready. Otherwise, we will never be ready, ready for the challenges, the obstacles, the hurdles life throws at us.

2010-05-03T16:21:00.006+08:00

the lovely psych girls, jie mei clique! very sweet of them, after our last paper, while picking up our bags, laughing at dajie abt ringo, they sang the happy birthday song=D thanks girls! there were the wishes from them, and the reactions from me, all filmed! if only someone tells me how to convert video format!

Dinner was at himawari, alexandra. japanese ala carte buffet! the food is good! do try it if you have the time! apparently, there was no dessert=(( still thought can try green tea cheesecake! oh well, but wai meng n kelven travelled to vivo to get the cake from bakerzin! oh man, damn touched!

Happy bunch! our first dinner outside i think! other times, will be at anna's place, or hall 5, or one of the canteens in school, the most is jp! it was my first time celebrating with friends on the actual day i think! weird, but, it is a nice feeling=D

ahhh, yes, the cake was awfully sinful. we cut the cake, had a bit, and gave the rest to the staff at himawari! hahaha, even saw the chef or something eating it, bliss~

Anna! dearest roomie!

Desmond!

zhi hao!

kelven!

Joel!

Wai Meng!

Eng How!

Roy!

yes, the cake=D its really good! very chocolatey!

proceeded to brewerks thereafter! ahhh, unlucky, ate too much during the buffet. warning signal after some beer! bleargh, wasted man!

Thanks to my JCRC! for the 'surprise' at 11 plus! and thanks chunling for the attack again! chocolate on face, good. but not choco cream!

Thanks to zhen, raj, and le zung! for being outside my door at 12 midnight! sadly, was having supper=(( but thanks for the cake!!

thanks to joe, for the apple crumble, I am sure its not appl crumble though! hahaha, thanks alot!!

thanks to family, for the great dinner! yum yum, at the pines!

I must have had 4 wishes this birthday? had 4 cakes in total? but it was all the same 4 wishes. for him to be happy.

meeting some of the jc ppl later! cnt wait man! been so long!!

clubbing with happy bunch n the psych girls on wed!

fri n sat got the psych scene! and the supposed playhouse gathering on sat too!

2010-04-29T17:17:00.002+08:00

http://www.withoutsanctuary.org/main.html

was looking at some websites about psychology stuffs, and somehow I was linked to this site.

Looking at the photos, I am amazed how the prejudice and discrimination generated led to these horrors, lynching. Not to forget the Holocaust, massacres between African tribes.

Seeing how the prejudice, and thus discrimination come about, I cant help feeling that we humans are a bunch of jealous, self centered and superficial creatures.

"No, we are just superficial, because they are of a different color, we are different, and we are superior, them inferior."

"They seem to be having better lives than us. Why should they? We are jealous, and think that they should lead worse lives than ours. Lets make their lives difficult."

"They are depriving us of the limited resources we have on earth. To survive, we must get rid of them."

Nothing ever gives you the right to take the life of another.

For murderers, the biggest punishment for them, is to let them live with the guilt, the hands marred with the blood of their victim. it is better than letting them off the hook, and they are off to the netherworld, with the no guilt, as they believed they have paid with their lives.

No matter how slimy, revolting another person is to you, the biggest hurt you can do to that person, is to forgive. It honestly drives them crazy. and the whole cognitive dissonance sets in. if the person has a slightest inch of conscience, one will change, for the better.

We are all the same, underneath it all. underneath the skin color, the appearance. And yet, it just takes something so minute, a comment or an insensitive action, to set us apart.

demoralizing ain't it?

But we can still take comfort that, somewhere out there, like in the 911 attacks, the all too common man steps out, and saves the lives of many. Heroes.

But apparently, we need more of these. it warms the heart, that actually, we humans arent that bad afterall. =)

2010-04-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

i tripped n fell. i picked myself up, brushed the sand aside, and continued, with a little pain, but i know it will heal in a day.

I jumped off the ledge, bad landing, slight pain in the ankle, but i continued nevertheless, knowing that after putting the ointment, i will be fine in a few days.

I ran and took a fall, knees badly scratched; elbows too. but i stood up still, knowing that the ointment will cure me yet again, and i will be fine in a couple of weeks.

And then, I decided to go parachuting. I didnt want someone to be attached to me, I insisted on doing it alone. and out i jumped. Was enjoying all the breeze and everything, but my heart skipped, when the parachute was stucked. Oh all luck. I panicked, just like any other person. but it was late, by the time i successfully opened the parachute.

I fell like a broken doll. Limbs askew. I couldnt move at all. and at that point, I knew, I will never move again. Not then, not now, not ever.

tears glazed my face. stupid decision. hurt myself and everyone else around. but its all too late. too late. I am crying almost everyday now.

I dont want to forget how to smile. (genuinely)
I dont want to forget how to have fun.
I dont want to forget how to laugh with the twinkle in my eyes.

but I just cant smile, have fun, laugh with the twinkle. like before.

too much has happened recently. I need to get out of singapore. I want to go backpacking, alone. I want to leave everything here in singapore. escapism.

2010-04-20T19:48:00.002+08:00

Spending too much time here, makes me feel emo.

I am this angsty girl now.

Why did things have to turn this way? Its all my fault.

I wish I can find something in this world still, to laugh at, to smile at. But all I can do now is to cry. Fuck.

It felt like a thousand arrows through the heart. and as if to deepen the effect, someone had to take something to hammer all of it in. Fuck.

Everything hurts too much. I am emo-ing too much. Fuck.

Exerting myself now, going to see where is my limit. I do hope I reach the limit after stats, and just collapse.

20years ago, I came to the world on that very day. Irony lies in that I wish to collapse, and never wake from the slumber again.

2010-04-19T22:33:00.001+08:00

hahahaha

and dajie keeps telling me, she was laughing at the "Fuck life" phrase, not the "Fuck my life"..

Thanks dajie! For informing me about the typo!

2010-04-19T20:47:00.003+08:00

Falling out of Love

The collapse of a close relationship may feel tragic. In the long run, however, our happiness and personal development may benefit from getting over being in love and ending a close relationship.

easier said than done.

Love is a canvas, furnished by nature and embroidered by imagination.
~Voltaire, French essayist, 18th century

On the other hand, love is so abstract, my beloved Developmental Psychology textbook failed to give me any definition=( I am damn disappointed with it now.

the irony of studying love, when i am out.

2010-04-18T21:26:00.002+08:00

the photo of us during our 1st anniversary still remains in my wallet.

the photo of us during your 19th birthday still remains on the shelf of the table in hall.

the photo of us during prom still remains on the display cupboard in my bedroom.

the photo of us during your commissioning parade still remains to be my favourite photo.

I was reminded of the times we cooked dinner together, when I walked past the row of canned soups, from the brand you love very much.

I was reminded of the times we went cycling, when I saw news about bicycle vendors in parks.

I was reminded of the times we had meals at Eighteen Chefs, when I walked past the place.

But now, I am smiling, instead of sobbing or tearing. for the happy memories we had. for the silly moments we shared.

From a great friend, Celest ( you better thank me for using your nick!)
No matter how long our problems may last, it is comforting to know that we usually outlive them. darkness lurks but it is eventually replaced by dawn. lets charge towards our dawn together. U're like a sister to me;)

2010-04-16T16:13:00.014+08:00

Lol, we all need a good laugh occasionally.

Recently, my pet phrase is "f my life", which dajie, her nickname is celest, keeps laughing over, coz she claims that it is funny to hear that coming out from me.

Then, i was just looking at photos here and there, and I cant help laughing at how much I have changed. Did my best (alright, there were lazy times) to find photos, but primary school photos have to be scanned, so probably another day for those photos!

Thats me on the left side! hahahaha, deeply amused by it! My dad always say that my head very big, and when he carry me, my head will just loll around!

Thats me with slightly longer hair in secondary school! hahahaha, yep, my upper secondary class, 3e5 and 4e5=D Try to find me?? Hahahaha, and i do apologise to anybody, who may get a shock to see these photos up! but it is pretty hilarious at times=DDD

Me and the impossibly short hair! this was all the way at bintan! I rmb we went to 'build' shelves for them, or something along that line=D that was the first time I saw so many many stars! vaguely remember us pulling out the mattresses to just look up and doze off with the sea breeze and loads of mosquitoes as company=DD

hahahaha, the NPCC days, Fusion! We were probably one of the smallest squad, with many quitting halfway! I think in this photo,tts my shortest hairstyle in tkgs! I remember having loads of fun, especially when we became NCOs, we go to the NPCC room almost every day after lessons! just nua-ing there was enjoyful!

Lol, and there were those who asked if I was a butch. hahahaha, yeah yeah. I thought i was before , but nah!

Sadly, I couldnt find my lower secondary photos! it was really fun too! I remember having PE sessions with Judy Kong! and then there was the cheerleading competition or something like that! hahaha, and I was in cheer then! lol, maybe I am lucky that no photos surfaced!

Proceeded to take the O's and while waiting for results, I got into MJ. i remember my first choice was TJ. boy am I lucky I chose MJ, then principal of tkgs went over to TJ, and i think she ended up not being a very great principal!

My PAE class! hahahaha, it is really amazing! didnt do any studying, remember flunking tests etc. and seeing people around with different uniforms! i guess we were most distinct! the greenies! LOL, I think i still have the tkgs uniform around somewhere!

After the O's, decided to stay on in MJ, i guess the friends made was a great pull factor! 07S101, which we proceeded to have alot of wonderful memories together!

And yep, I had the 'Extreme Makeover' treatment! braces removed, switch to contacts! It was still quite some time, before i changed the fringe, to become myself, in the photo below!

i think this was some pesta sukan challenge?? with the floorball girls!

And it was through floorball that I met him, glendon:)

Love this photo alot=D yep, it is a very recent photo, but I still like it alot! I still remembered how we met.

Spraining my ankle during one of the practice sessions, and then he came with the ice pack. recounting this story to many, it was a classic tale. the many many memories shared, going through the j1 bash as a couple (he winning the meridian hunk), our numerous birthday celebrations, our anniversaries, prom as a couple, phuket getaway with anna and calvin, the 9months OCS..

I never regretted meeting him, as I did enjoyed a great 2.5 years with his company. I grew up, matured and so did he. it was a wonderful journey with him=D

the 5th miranda housecomm! the things we go through, the crapping, the laughing, the crying, and everything, makes the memories so worthwhile! orientation was fun, together with the cny celebrations, road relay etc! Fond memories!

ahh, the 5th House Comms! hahaha, yes, and if you can spot me, my hair was still at the cmi stage! us with our really boomz shirt! I always laugh when it pops out at unexpected places!

the handing over to the 6th! nah, thats not of them, 2 of them missing=( remember having abit of difficulties choosing them, but it all turned out well=DD I thought they really did a great job as a committee, and brought miranda to greater heights!

Hahahahaha, and the Pre-U seminar! stayed in Hall 3 then! hahaha, the late nights in the TV room, the fun, the hype! the SLO ics! coming from different different committees was hard, but I thought we all worked out pretty well!

and then, my wonderful class, 07s101! we defied all beliefs, and created a new identity! we werent exactly great with our physics, chem, maths and econs, and neither were we horrible in GP! it was one of the great 2 years, all the muggers, the tears, the laughter, the anger! Do miss everybody right now, and if possible, would absolutely love to go back to where we were=DD

the sentosa trip after prelims isit?? it was absolutely fun! remember going to class the next week, and we became the blackie class almost immediately, with us peeling, and teachers getting a shock! I stubbornly refused to put on ANY sunblock, and boy did i regret! i was still tearing in the toilet when i slapped on the aloe vera gel!

ahh, the lovely memories! the changes so drastic la! from our OG to now!

our meetups! must meet more! and yes, the NTU branch must meet soon too!! after the exams! promise!

hahahaha, I remember this! during X physique! the abseiling down the carpark! ahhh, and that was when I kena bird shit, 2 times, in a week! suay! Sitting at the top storey of the carpark, and I was just about to leave, when piack! drenched my hair with ice cold water, and i ended up having a bad headache! Damn the birds!

Wilhelm Wundt! never regretted going to this camp! it was a short camp, but it was really fun! we have since kept to the group and welcomed new people as well!

And then, got into Hall 5! ran for the 22nd JCRC!

Our retreat was so long time back! hahaha, the HTHTs! stirring shit whatsoever! ahhh, will look forward to the next retreat, after passing over to the next!=DD

Yep, running for biz mag! met loads of wonderful people as a result of the two Joint Halls! I remember emo-ing real bad after the elections, to the extent I was going to call it quits! only after talking it over did i chose to continue the journey, and it was really an eye opener!

during joint hall bazaar! hahaha, the hot pink shirt, definitely an attention grabber! heaved a great sigh of relief when it was all over!

roy and me! yep, both in my jcrc, and the happy bunch!

the hall opening runway! just camwhoring outside eng how's room la! no idea why too! desmond runway partner! i think that was the first time i was so so nervous! scared I slipped, scared I make a fool of myself blah blah!

the clubbing after semester 1 exams! wow, it was freaking crowded, and almost everywhere you go, there will be someone from NTU! 5th may!!

and the numerous dinners at Anna's place! thanks roomie! the karaoke! the mahjong, the steamboat, the pizza! Wheee! more of this again!

Desmond at QP!

steamboat during CNY, in hall! hahaha, just rmb the guys being very hungry still!!

hahaha, and yes, the wonderful girls again in psych! the ones who sat down with me to go through the lessons, in stats, pei dajie ogle at ringo, the boring lessons with venus about her chocolate replacing her boyfriend etc etc. hahahaha, and the brunch at canteen A debating who goes to jail, the gossips, and so much more stuffs=DD

I have no idea what i am doing then. the mega burger craze! first time eating that then!

hahahaha, one of the more normal photos that we took during yesterday's camwhore session! technical glitch, cant upload the rest=((( next time then!

2010-04-14T19:04:00.003+08:00

Just so happy, that a senior is going to propose to his girlfriend later this year. happily discussed about the details etc. giving suggestions where to take the wedding photos. and then, I was sucked into the past again.

I am constantly being pulled back by that spring attached to a damn heavy load which i cant move at all. the further i move forward, the further it decides to pull me back. Even then, it takes alot of energy just to remain at the same spot.

I was on the train just this monday, when i saw this old couple. he could hardly keep his balance on the train, and she was in the wheelchair. when he was about to fall, she pulled him back. when they had to start moving, he pushed her along. As I looked at their back views as the train drew out of the station, I was overwhelmed.

Overwhelmed with emotions. it was really touching, seeing how loving these old couples are. and the irony was just the day before, i saw how my parents declared a cold war.

From the bottom of my heart, I do thank everybody, who has been there for me, during this trying period. Whether you were there to give me a pat on the back or a hug or your listening ear, thanks for everything.

it will take me time to leave everything as it is, memories. but i know after this, i will be alot stronger=D bless me.

2010-04-12T19:07:00.003+08:00

I thought I was fine with it already. But it all turned out to be a brave front.

I do hate myself at times. Why did I send those smses?

No, correction, i hate myself.

I thought I coped well the whole of last week, no breaking down or whatsoever. But i broke down today. in front of my laptop. facing no one else, but my reflection when it goes on sleep mode. I hate the girl in the laptop.

Fuck all the crap that has been going on around me. Fuck life.

2010-04-07T23:19:00.003+08:00

I think the best decision I have made so far, was to follow my heart, and pursue my interest since my secondary school days, that is Psychology.

I never thought that our primary schools, secondary schools or even junior colleges were able to teach us the skills of critical thinking. Maybe it is just in my case, but I do remember being spoon-fed throughout and just taking answers as it is.

I remember asking questions during primary school, and my teacher shut me up after my endless questions. From then on, I was scared to raise any questions, and I just take everything that they teach as it is. So what if I dont understand what is inertia? Just read the book and take it as it is. Why are things this way? Take it as it is.

I never questioned anything beyond what was taught in the class, and I never really saw a need to. Ever since coming to Uni, I do question about things, and I am also surrounded by a whole lot of ppl who also question about stuffs.

I guess Psych really forces you to think about issues you may not have thought of before. And I have learnt alot from it. i am aware of the fundamental attribution error, cognitive dissonance etc. And it has helped me to really take control of my emotions, preventing them from getting the better of me.

And I am honestly glad to have met the girls! JIE MEI clique! They really make the Uni days a whole lot more enjoyable! All the lunches, and brunches, the laughter, the gossiping, the crapping, the mugging! The serious discussions we share!

I guess I am glad because we all really have alot of fun together, and can share things with them! we all know when to play, when to be serious! similar frequency too!

Dajie keep thinking about next time, when we all have our own families, we will still do meetups, the eight of us, talking and chatting like old times, with kids running all around.

I do thank whoever made it possible to let me meet this group of special people in my life now. Who says you cant find true friends in Uni? Believe you can and you will=D

Oh and thanks to zhen! for the card you spent so much time doing, despite the crazy hectic schedule you have! appreciate it alot! I will be strong, dont worry!

2010-04-02T13:27:00.004+08:00

To you,
The happy memories that we shared, will always be treasured.

Thank you for all the lovely times we have had together.

Thank you for being with me when I was down.

Thank you for bringing me out of the shadow I was in before I met you.

Thank you for cheering me on, when I lost all passion to charge forward.

Thank you for being my best friend, my confidante, my advisor, my boyfriend.

Thank you for accepting all my flaws, my stubbornness, my strong headed-ness, my numerous flaws which you embrace and still continued loving me.

Thank you for shaping the person I am today.

Thank you for teaching me what is love.

Thank you for loving me.

It was a great 30months together with you. Thanks for everything. I hope you are fine now.

To everybody,

Thanks for all the well wishes.
It is in these times that we know, true friends do exist.
Give me time to adjust, I will be fine. I promise.

2010-03-29T12:08:00.002+08:00

It was heartwarming, and sweet. In the presence of all the newly appointed officers and their dates, the guy knelt down and proposed to the girlfriend. Of how many years, I don't know.

under the pretext of being nominated for the best-dressed, (which wasnt really on the programme), they went up, and the guy sang "In love with you" when all his then-recruits egged him on. and then, the proposal.

It is lovely to see a proposal take place, and one really feels happy for the new couple. even though I dont know them at all. I guess in a society, whereby divorce is increasingly becoming a norm rather than the exception, it is still heartening to know that there are people getting engaged, married still, with a bright future and a road paved for them both.

Taken you for granted. You are right, since I entered Uni, you were the one giving , and me the taking. Probably I dont deserve you. We have quarrelled so much recently. lets take a break.

2010-03-26T21:58:00.003+08:00

the sick bug never really left me. It decided to hover around me for awhile, like an irritating fly. Honestly, I rather it just attack me, and leave me alone for awhile.

It sucks to be sick on-off-ly. It sucks to wake up, look in the mirror, and see a pale sickly me. It sucks when you crave for something light, and there is nothing nice and light in the canteens around Hall 5. It sucks when you just couldnt get to sleep on some days, tossing and turning, and resorting to playing Bubble Breaker on the phone to go to sleep.

an emo streak took over me on wed. took a nap, and I woke up, super distraught, and superbly sick. i couldnt even leave my room, so I didnt join them for block supper and the jcrc briefing=( I miss the homecooked food by my mum, I miss my family. I wanted to withdraw from hall, school. I wanted to leave everything in Singapore, and run away from it.

A break down thereafter. wanted to talk to someone badly, someone who understands what I am going through, someone who could enlighten me, someone whom I had relied on before, but nobody was there then. prideful.

after pretty long, himbo came to find me. hah, and he brought liqeur chocolates in a bid to cheer me up, forgetting that i am still sick. we talked about alot of things. however, it was a touch and go on the topic that made me emo.

it is different now. I long to smile because I do mean it. I long to laugh because I am really having fun. I long to be the normal, carefree and happy girl I used to be. Wish me.

2010-03-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

false impression, false hopes, false life.

2010-03-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

was at dear's commissioning parade last sat. so proud of him. rest of the photos with his brother. camera died on me=( lucky for the phone=D

the week hasnt been fine, two outings postponed=( teoheng with some of the ppl in hall and our playhouse comm gathering!! sad=(

nua-ed at home the entire weekend, or spend time with boy. ok, time to go back and start doing work liao!! get started on revision schedule!!

2010-03-21T10:54:00.002+08:00

male raging hormones + punishment + being offered = excuses by the weaker of the sexes ( the guys)

Indignant about these bastards, making excuses like " oh I cant help it, they threw themselves at me!" OR "I needed a way to relive myself (yeah, like a dog) of my sexual needs" OR "she deserves it".

we read news about certain extra-maritial affairs, whic rock the local scene and yet another which I believe rocked the entire world. If you have been living under a stone, or in the well, then I will do you a good, and tell you, its Jack Neo and Tiger Woods respectively.

We grew watching liang si mei/liang po po, and I really loved the 'I not stupid' series, (probably coz of the joshua ang then-.-) And I remember my impression of neo being that of a fatherly figure, respected person (he did win that medallion thingy right). And I would never have thought that he had that EMA for two years?? wtfreak.

how could he do this to the wife, who stood by him when he was down? it seems like men when they have too much money, have more inclination to have EMA.

No, I am not a laggard. I wanted to write this, because I was reading TIME, when I saw the scandals involving pope benedict XVI. and yes, sex abuse scandals. Now, a pope , from what i perceive, is supposed to be all holy, rid of all desires, blah blah. (or is that of a monk? whatever, same schema). but these innate desires, like sex, just get the better of all his religious preachings.

And then, there are all these acts of incest in places far away from us. yes, father raping BOTH his daughters repeatedly over 10 years or so, and having children with them. the thought is just revolting. And another case in Austria, believe all of you heard about this case, the father keeping the daughter in an underground place, with his grandchildren(or children, coz he fathered them) never feeling the warmth of the sun, the kiss of the wind and the wetness of the rain.

Reading these kind of news, really make me wish there are punishments the person is to be hanged, but not till he dies, just enough to make him faint. then put him on the electric chair, and give him a high enough jolt to shock him, but not to kill him. then put him with the tigers and lions, and let them play with him, scratch them, pounce on them, but not to kill him, and round off the entire process by beheading. but alas, we live in a civilised society. the irony. Crimes committed are hardly deemed civilised, and punishments seem so light as compared to the horrors they brought to their victims.

And of women committing adultery, many say there are such cases, just that they are not mentioned. you see, when they do commit, and it being an exception, the entire story will be blown up, and many (read MANY) news agency would want to report it, so we will all read about it. So since we haven read many of these, there arent many cases of women doing so. period.

2010-03-19T00:39:00.003+08:00

Bad week, going to fall sick real soon=( express my thanks first=D

Thanks to my operation gpa5.0 partner! andrew! for the 2 bottles of chicken essence, supposedly to build up immune system! haven touch yet, but its the thought that counts! oh, and for the various snacks you always bring when we go study! yumyum!

Thanks to ah neh, for the cardigan and the vitamin C pills! yes, very big, but it will do just fine=D and yes, i will get well so that later when we go teo heng, i will be alot alot better!!

Thanks to soh teng! for the chocos! very nice very nice! hell week finally over=D

Thanks to joe for the fabulous dinner on sat! yumyum, but the two of us really cnt finish alot huh? never mind, we meet up soon soon k!!!

Thanks to everybody who wish me and glen well=D
Thanks to all those who had to listen to my troubles, worries whatever! basically the psych girls, and those who msn, sms, see me damn damn often! What will i do without you guys??

2010-03-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

This is max. he is a golden btw, you just cnt tell from this photo. he just looks like a siao gao (mad dog).

Had a lovely time today with dear. it has definitely been long since we spent such time together, just the two of us, almost entire day.

The past few weeks had been absolutely bad for me, more so for you. I am sorry for whatever hurt I inflicted on you. Let's start anew dear. I am still looking forward to our many many anniversaries in the future=D

i love you glendon.

2010-03-11T14:05:00.002+08:00

I thought I was fabulous, to surivive hell week, a week before recess.

And now, I realise this week has been more mentally and physically draining. wtf. 3 quizzes in a row, 20% 25% 30%. 40%assignment. I think life cant get any worse.

No, it did get worst=( as some of you may know, I walked in to hp200, my first quiz of the week, about 15minutes more to the end of the paper. I think I really took a big risk to choose to walk in instead of taking a MC.

been studying until really really late recently. lucky for new study partner=D thanks thanks=D

and just when i finish the 3rd quiz, and thought I can get my sleep, ( I slept abt 1.5 hrs before tt) the stupid 5% summary of research article is due tmr, and I have yet to start.

Whats' worst? I have hall event later at 630pm. GG. i think i will end up sleeping superbly late again today.

Save me from all this crap.

One thing to look forward to, the end of this freaking week.

Please..

2010-03-05T17:15:00.002+08:00

a beautiful antique closet stood there,
blending perfectly with the rustic feel of the wall
the scent of oak in the air.

looking at the exquisite details,
I am sure whatever inside will be worth it.
Something tells me to stop
but my curiosity got the better of me.

I opened the door,
only to see the skeleton in it.

fear overcame me,
instincts taking over me,
i turned and ran.

Ran like I never ran before,
ran with the wind whistling in my ear.
Tears blurred my vision.

Why, why?
Why cant I be rid of this nightmare?
This occurring nightmare?

I want to come clean.
Grant me a chance to do so.

You will always be the skeleton in the closet.

2010-03-03T00:11:00.005+08:00

See all the soft toys at the corner?? the tiger one is i won during CNY lucky draw! the grey bear i got it from the kiap kiap machine myself during a bazaar long time ago! and the last one, weijie got it for me; he played darts and won it!

yes, playhouse over, but the impact still there, u see the wonderful poster and flyer there! great design andrew!

after the crazy hectic week of playhouse 2010, hall closing, and cny dinner, we decided to go dbl o. It was fun filled, the main characters were our new jcrc couple, aki and colin!

me and chunz! your turn next ok??

with aki! the female lead of the night!

the early birds. yes, we were just nua-ing there-.- saw a few people there, but cant determine whether it is really who I think it is, my eyesight is deteriorating=(

yes, as quoted from keith, " 2 yandaos and a chiobu". LOL

the eventual 10!

yes, just us 3 girls there=D zi pai with the bulky cam, damn difficult man!

bad shape, i am going to dye my hair jet black soon!

LOL, serkun suay man, the cai quan, keep losing. all the funny moments here and there, really funny=D

2010-02-26T11:12:00.002+08:00

This week is coming to an end, marks the end of many stuff.

First, it has been great to know the other 17 people in the Joint Hall Bazaar. Putting up Playhouse 2010 with you guys was great fun! All our hard work since November has finally paid off, over in a matter of 5 hours! I really had a lot of laughter and joy during our meetings etc and knowing some of you guys more=D

Thanks to Cedrick, Shiying, Jeremy, Andrew, Kahmin, Charlene, Jacq, Jerry, Farah, Nicholas, yong en, jimmy, ming fen, yong wei and my other floor mags, Johnny, seow tian and dave! Outing together soon!

Learnt loads as a chief floor mag. times spent during meetings can never be replaced by other meetings!

Secondly, Joint Hall Biz Mags! Finally finished all the goodie bags etc and whatever not! We are going to have our jhbiz t-shirt! hahaha, remember going crazy on Hall Closing Night, outside with the warm wind blowing, and us 'competing' to give the goodie bags. It must have been a funny sight! me collapsing on the floor, with andrew yongwei and junjie fake running, giving me all the stupid dares they can think of! hahaha, the laughter. awesome!

So that marks the end of both my joint hall comms. What can I say? I am definitely happy to be part of the comms, no matter tears or laughter, frowns or smiles, I enjoyed the times there.

of course, this marks the start of studying=( Haiz. I am a student afterall.

2010-02-24T02:38:00.000+08:00

Finally, PLAYHOUSE 2010's over! kind of bittersweet i guess=D

happy that it has ended. happy that overall comments were good. happy to have met great people along the way.

ended at 11pm, only reach room at 6am 23rd Feb? LOL. slept after lunch from 1plus to 11. shocked to see the dark sky=((

update more soon, chionging HW111 assignment, and Hall Closing tmr!

2010-02-19T03:50:00.002+08:00

Ahh, ok, I am stressed. Very.

Hell next week doesnt make it at all comforting. Monday, Playhouse! Tuesday, goodie bag packing and any other last minute sai gang! Wednesday, Hall Closing and possibly more sai gang! Thursday, CNY celebrations in hall!

Playhouse meeting just now was messy and draining. everybody was calling anybody, and discussing about everything. once i settled with one issue, another comes with another issue. and yet another and another.

Haiz. And ticket sales in hall are bad. the least expected committee actually bought the most tickets!! I am pretty sad.

And I am worried for the entire event on Monday. It is in 3 days?? And i think i really need alot of help from Log side. What if the turnout rate is especially low?? I cant stop myself from worrying. Worry wart.

I dont show it sometimes, but when I am quiet, I am thinking of ways to solve issues that refuse to bug off. The headache seems to stay permanent though.

Not complaining about all this because I know I will definitely sigh a great deal of relief, but the workload is fine, it keeps me motivated to study during the free time that i have.

I am dreading the day but anticipating it too. I want it to be over soon, but I wish we could have more time to prepare. Controversial character!

2010-02-18T02:44:00.004+08:00

Time has never been a good friend of mine.
Clearly, I cant read its mind or maintain our friendship.
I thought it will always be on my side.
But as it always happens,
it stands on the other side of the line.

Going to hit the big 2 doesn't help matters, at all.
I wish time will stop now,
always a teen,
my mantra since secondary school.

Karma has a way of finding people.
Not too long ago, I laughed at a friend.
And now, de javu.

I hate you, time.

I just ask for one thing now.
Just one, not anymore.
Let me survive next week.

I am crumbling.
Wondering if anyone will help to pick up the pieces.

I miss everything about the past.

Bring back everything to me.

I need to talk to someone. Badly. my relat-or.

2010-02-14T00:08:00.002+08:00

flabbergasted. yes, i dont know whether i was just too stunned to speak, or too angry. maybe it was both. I dont know.

was selling the Playhouse tickets at Canteen A on Thurs. saw friend ABC and after telling me he really cant go for the event, he told me can find his friends. So ok, we went to look for his friends. upon reaching the table, he went right to the other end of the table and sat down. Ok, i didnt mind, so i gave his friends 2 flyers. Mr F decides to take it with a bored face. glance at it, look at me with a certain sneer, folded the flyer into half, and put it down in a plastic bag that has other rubbish in it, and returned to eating. And as if I didnt get the point, he repeated it again. and he did all that as i was explaining to them the entire event.

I look at ABC with disbelief, he could only hang his head low. And then i realised the only thing i could do was to exit with my dignity still intact. another of ABC's friend return the other flyer. Mr F decides to return it to me too, but i told him its ok. looked at ABC straight, thanked him and walked off.

yes, that was happened. flabbergasted. humiliated. and ABC had just sat down, as if he didnt know me, allowed his friend, Mr F, to do that to me. totally disappointed.

oh well, i am lucky i still met some strangers who bought tickets from me! got lucky, those 3 guys got the tickets from me still. told me about this diving trip they organising. damn tempting. but too bad i cnt make it for this one. nvm, ask parents about it, they are fine with it!!

vday today! got loads of roses this time, thanks to bf, joe, nevin n enghow=D thanks guys! I miss the times in tkg and mj, where we celebrate vday, by buying chocs, soft toys, roses etc=D still remember the dedication we get to make during vday, loads of sabo-ing, but it is still pretty neat=D

already start planning for recess week! going clubbing with jcrc on 26th i think=D going for qp on sat, 6th march!

2010-02-07T16:48:00.006+08:00

engineering school organized a bazaar at canteen B area. being a typical girl, i saw the kiap kiap machine, and the cute bears looking out almost forlornly at me, I went to the guy and asked if I could pay him a dollar and get the bear.

"Hi, can i pay u $1, and i get the bear inside?"
"How about you try it out first??"
"What if I dont get the bear?"
"Ok, if you dont get it after the 10th try, then u pay me a dollar, then I give u the bear."

*&#@!* Wth. decided to try my luck nevertheless. and I got it on the 2nd try!! everybody was shocked! sohteng exclaimed so loudly, and everybody else shrieked when the claws came down on the bear! the guy was shocked too i think!

Was so happy, i was jumping around with joy the entire day. nothing can make me upset! not even "yar, they have bazaars to trick girls like you!"

Finally a proper date with bf! Wagyu beef set! a jap charcoal grill restaurant. I am a sucker at remembering names=( It was very very nice!

came with the veggies too, the mushroom and the corn was the best of the lot!

ahh, warm and nice kimchi soup! definitely a yumyum!

Entire bill came up to $150 there about. quite nice, the ambience was definitely great, the food was excellent to.

his belated birthday celebration ended with us at bakerzin, cookies and cream cheesecake with peanut butter cheesecake! Ahh, peanut butter bliss=DDD

Got him the leather bag he has been wishing for=D
Happy 20th! you are a old boy now!! OLD!

Haven been a good girl recently. Work left unattended, piling there, collecting the dust my room seems to have in abundance. 2 nights spent playing mahjong, as a result, the work accumulated!

Thursday was the worst day ever! 830-530pm, no breaks. I am sure i died after social psychology, but somehow revived by the $75 I will be getting from playing bejeweled 2 Deluxe every day for 2 hours. Significant toll on my health=(

Cult night is over, it was fun=D walking all the way, from Hall 10 back has never been so enjoyable, a break from the absolutely tiring day ever=D I didnt even go drinking with happy bunch=D

Thanks to all the lovely friends I have. I feel very loved=D

2010-01-31T22:00:00.004+08:00

Phew, this week is over! But it is not going to be the most hectic week this sem!

Monday, went swimming then tennis with chunz, ht, herrick. hahaha, it was quite a weird group but oh well! LOL. went to support water polo, got thrashed by hall 6, the freaking IVP, but I always have faith in my hall, that if all IVPs are banned from sports, I think we will win!! HAHAHA. supposed to have rehearsal at 830, and it dragged, and only started at 10pm instead. Sheesh=((

Tuesday, pack goodie bags!! Ahh, so busy man! 1500 bags, thats freaking too much. worst, there were runners going to each station to pick up the goodies, pity them! walked from hall 6 to hall 13, shiok! got derrick to pei me halfway though=D watched cheerleading, and wow, I am really speechless somehow=D

Wednesday, went off earlier from lessons to do the makeup and hair for Hall Opening. Phew, lucky we got Boho, was spared from the thick makeup. nevertheless, it was still thick! was freaking freaking nervous la, desmond totally witnessed that! lucky the walk went well, and luckily we posed the longest in front of our hall, so it was still not so bad to see all the familiar faces=D hahaha, lucky lucky! the cheer competition was pretty cool, though i felt that some halls didnt do that well as expected=D goodie bags were well received coz of the milo! hahaha.

Oh, and photos will be up soon for Hall Opening I hope, so keep a lookout!

Thursday, was shagged, went back hall and sleep till 830, titsy bitsy late for jcrc mtg, i am so sorry! was soon followed by playhouse meeting! lucky cedrick spared me from going all over school to paste the posters, phew!
Yes people! If you haven been aware of this, there is going to be a joint hall bazaar coming up soon, on 22nd Feb! Guaranteed fun and laughter for all!~

Always find this poster damn damn cool! catchy! remember the times when we were talking about the catchy phrases, had a good laugh over everything! laugh till i cried! LOL.

"Play or get played!"

"Play me!"

"I am your slave"

The few that i remembered! The final one we have decided, and it is going to be on our shirt! hahaha, how cool is that??!

2010-01-24T14:20:00.002+08:00

2nd week of school was pretty fine. I didnt miss any of my 830 lectures, proud and happy=D though i did walked out of hp802, and was half an hour late for econs. But hey, its a big improvement man!!

No more Add Drop for me since Monday! Prof Chan kindly helped me out with the entire process, so basically i didnt had to camp in front of the computer. Great deal of time, heart wrenching moments saved=D

Taking hp802 and he191 for electives now. yes, this semester, entirely from HSS. LOL. Same electives anybody??

Fitting was yesterday at Haji Lane. lucky desmond and me were the earlier pairs, dont have to stick with weird styles. We got Boho in the end. I like=D all natural look=D yes, why the fitting?? coz of the Hall Olympiad-.- Dinner at Blue Jaz with des kelven and xue yi. nice place to chill!

Was just thinking about random stuffs again.

Believed most of you are aware of the situation in Haiti. The earthquake that took place, the destruction left behind, the looting that soon followed.

We see the world reaching out to them, promises of food, medical aid and whatever not. and you see artistes ready to sing a new version of "We're the World", to raise funds for them. is it just yet another publicity stunt, or do they mean to help them from the bottom of their hearts?? That I will never know. Food for thought.

I feel the old workaholic me is back. and definitely here to stay for awhile. Last time i saw that reflection of me has got to be the J1 times. Like i mentioned before, i think being busy is totally fine. Somehow, u really treasure all the times you get to play, to study etc, and you end up putting your very best in whatever you do.

I have changed. I am no longer the girl who broke into inconsolable tears on June 2008. I want to be myself again. I dont want to continually rely on others. I can make it big. I believe so.

2010-01-17T16:25:00.005+08:00

This is my silly goofball dog, Max. He is almost 5years old. He loves to eat alot, and he loves to whine too. I think he is a crybaby, but he is just so cute, I cant bear being angry at him for long.

I realise my blog so picture-less recently, so took some photos from fb to put here!=D

And yes, if you haven realise, I have bangs now. Worst decision ever. Hesitated for damn long, but somehow, I got the urge to go cut, and I went out immediately to REDS and got it. And damn, I think i regretted almost immediately. AHH, what can I do, just wait for the hair to grow, before CNY comes..

On a happier note, finally we went for the Sakae buffet thing! Not the entire Wilhelm, but it dragged long enough man! 10 of us in total, so we had a discount of 5bucks each!

Super fun to mix with this group of people, laughing till the sides ache every single time.

Lucky I went for the psychology camp and met this group of wonderful people. Each and everyone of you guys occupy a special place in my heart=DDDD

me and soh teng!!

argh, the dreaded nattomaki, fermented soy beans. Urgh. play the number game, and I kena it=((

clearly, I was in distress, the thing just stinks really bad.

Hahahaha, i removed most of the beans, but there were still some beans left, and it was freaking disgusting.. it taste like vomit=(( Urghh. Where is the hero who saves the damsel in distress??? Stupid fairytale story.

First week in school was ok. And yes, I miss my 830am lecture, was damn pissed with myself. Urgh, first week, and I already break the resolution!! Argh, I need wake up calls!!!

Realise that I study better when I am super busy. In a way, we treasure the times we get to study, and not waste it away.

This semester is going to be super hectic, Hall Opening and Closing, and Pasar Ole! And a secret project=D Ssshh, only told one person about it I think=DD Jiayou!!

2010-01-12T22:25:00.003+08:00

I miss my fringe.. I really do. I dont want to face the camera now at all, with peeling skin, and super chui fringe, i cant bear to put this down.

But the girls have been lovely so far. I love u girls=D

first day of school for me, a freaking 930 lecture. halfway, i was really damn tired, just felt like sleeping. and i have 2 830 lessons, bless me.

Add drop is the stupidest thing ever, sitting in front of computer. abit like the scraps collectors, basically snatching (read, it is snatching) the unwanted modules the years 4s,3s,2s drop. And really dumb modules for some. Lucky me i guess, i still got the stupid econs module. Argh, Ms Quek revisited. Horror.

Dbl O with the jcrc people was fun. like the after drinking, then go talk cock or htht with people. I miss the IH period, save for the sunburnt part.

Finally met up with the Psychology people. Oh man, i miss them alot. hahaha, been so long since we have seen each other. I do miss all the laughters, crapping. Ahh, lucky for these group of people.

Facade. Masks. Knowing the real you.

2010-01-08T17:59:00.002+08:00

Spent much of my time for the past few days playing mahjong, great sport, they should include it in the IHRG. Otherwise I am at softball trg, or supporting games or meeting.

Out for most games, but the spirit that Hall 5 showed throughout the games, truly commendable! So proud! Honestly, I was about to cry when Yunsheng mentioned that, even though we lost, our spirit wins the other halls. Crybaby! LOL.

Sent glendon off to taiwan alr, only be back on the 26th=(( Oh well, lucky busy this period again=DD Lucky me then!

changed the date of the Joint Hall bazaar due to our commitments, felt super guilty, partly my fault i didnt notice the clash of dates earlier=(( Sobs=( But at long last, it was settled! truthfully, I want to continue in it instead of withdrawing, as I knew this is the best time for me to show what I can do!

School is starting on the 11th! too fast i feel, but oh well, what can i do? Set my goals for semester 2 with regards to hall life!

GPA of 4.5!
Attend lectures n tutorials even if it is at 830am!
Cut down/ No supper!
Wake up early, and dont't waste the day!
Do a farking good job as Business Manager!

Going to dbl O later with some of the jcrc people, hope we have fun! Hahahaha!!

2009-12-31T14:14:00.003+08:00

Finally back at home! Miss home loads!

I am damn tanned now, no thanks to the IH period. So much for my call to sleep early! always deterred by mahjong. remember the last one, i only got to sleep at 6am, and expected to wake at 930, which i did!

So how was your xmas?? Mine was great! spent the afternoon with glen followed by our jcrc gathering! Played games and i must say i was pretty unlucky to kena all the drinks=((

It's the time of the year again, to make new resolutions!

2009 was alright for me, made alot of new friends, was financially independent for quite awhile, went overseas with dear together with anna and calvin, stayed in hall, blah blah.

but i know 2010 will only be better!

Pull my CGPA to 4.0 by end of second sem, so that means scoring 4.5 for the next semester=DD
find a job so that i dont need to rely on dad for pocket money!
save money, stop shopping that much!
be a good student, attend lectures even if it is at 830am!
Prioritise my time well, manage my portfolio well
Spend time with glendon, family and friends!

i think i still have alot, but just cnt think now. I think i am going to take a short nap now before going out again! See you guys next year!

2009-12-29T14:53:00.002+08:00

just checked the cgpa. i got a miserable 3.5

si bei sian, but thinking back, i think i gave up soon after the first paper, and was in a si bei slack mode for my other 3 papers, namely marketing, comm studies and stats. so maybe i was lucky to get 3.5

Nevertheless, it is super horrible to see a 3.5, its so ugly! AHHHHHH...

perfect wake up call i have been looking for..

just contacted Roy to tell him i wouldnt be joining dance next sem, and i feel awfully guilty, disappointed him a 2nd time man=((

never mind, i will jiayou for the following 7 semesters!!

2009-12-19T17:36:00.005+08:00

Was greeted by this when we entered the departure gate. Sweet!

We landed in Korea, Incheon at about 5am. It was pretty cold and we were immediately whisked off to the Nami Islands. the original schedule was for us to go to Everland, which is a themepark but our tour guide, Eddie, thinks its dumb for us to go there, sleep deprived.

Nami Island is pretty cool, it was where they filmed Winter Sonata or something like that, with Bae Yong Jun, the auntie killer.

See, it was so cold, the water from the fountain was pretty much frozen. There were many scenes that was perfect for picture taking, but somehow, it didnt turn out nice??=((

2nd day, we went Seorak Park or something which is really home to the bear that is in the pic above, the white bib right under the chin.

Our tour group! loads of little kids, and since Eddie was such a kids lover, the kids were the main people he wanted to please for the entire journey. LOL.

the really pretty scene, most of the snow melted, sadly, otherwise we could have seen snow capped mountains!

We took like this super big cable car up the mountain, that could fit 50 people. Sorry, I have never heard of a cable car carrying so many people, so let me be swa ku ok?

Climbed all the way to the top, it was so tiring, when i reached the top, i felt like throwing away my jacket, which I did, and I regretted after a minute.

Family photo!

we went descended and came across this tap with no apparent tube bringing water to it, how could there be water coming out? Actually, the tube is inside the water flow, you just cnt see it with the water coming down.

Interestingly, a few Jap tourists saw it, and they were convinced there was a pipe, somehow camouflaged against the background, and they started moving their hands right at where a pipe usually is. was super amusing to see them wave a few times before it actually dawned upon one of them that the pipe is inside!

supposed to bring North Korea and South Korea back together or something, but i feel it is quite impossible. asin, the statue was erected to hopefully unite Korea again.

We went to ski on the 3rd day. it was really fun!! abit like rollerblading, iceskating? decided to challenge ourselves more, and climb to higher grounds, instead of staying at the beginners place=D the wind was so stingy! and i swear, the climb up was more tiring than the ski down=D

must be wondering why we didnt get the tickets for the cable ride up? coz we were pretty much beginners, and we highly doubt we have the stamina to go down so long a slope=DDD

my skiing suit, was too short to cover my ankles, so i was left to bear the brunt of the ghastly wind, argh. i swear the ankle area was numb then after=((

my impossibly high dad..

FYI, we didnt see snow at all=( sobs, all these are artificial, but it is still quite cold.. -3 degrees Celsius i think. brrrr..

After skiing, went for the hot spring thing. pretty ok, the people there are somehow perfectly fine walking up and down the locker room in their birthday suits! thought they will only be starkers inside the naked bath, but they were like running all over!

the night scene, even up till 4am, there are people skiing still! or snowboarding, whichever.

ahhh, the family photo distorted by the vapour form on the camera. damn.

Day 4, we went to Everland! it is really just a themepark, but mega big sia.

The lions were pretty cute, in this bus, and went ard to see the animals, explaining for the lack of barricades.

The lion is so cute, the way it lies there, so peaceful and innocent in a way??

I like the contrast, the giraffes in the back ground, and the white tiger. they are separated by a drain i think=D

this is a Liger, cross between lion and tiger. pretty cool, but it is all alone, isolated from the rest, no companions, so sad for it=(((

This is a greedy bear. when the driver threw him biscuits, his saliva splattered everywhere, gross! Lucky for the windows of the bus, otherwise we wun be spared!

they obey commands like stand, sit that kind of thing, pretty obedient, but when they stand, we were just awe struck, they were really big and magnificent!

We went to the Korea Traditional Cultural Centre and made kimchi! Honestly, I was really sick of seeing kimchi already, it is served for every single meal, yes, including breakfast??! Sheesh, but i must say alot of effort goes to the sauce/marinade or whatever u call it=D

Lotte World on Day 6. it is really just like everland, just that it is both indoor and outdoor theme park. saw alot of students, and they all look alike la! bangs with shoulder length hair etc. maybe they came from the same doctor ba, who knows?

There was a performance by a troupe, and it was kind of cool, been pretty long since i have seen a fairy tale themed musical. hahaha, nostalgia again.

wore the traditional costume, the hanbok and took photos. My mum wore like the empress costume with the ultra heavy headgear.

Went to watch some performance which was quite cool, seeing that i haven seen one for ages. but it was a kind of typical story that sort=D

This is dear aloysius, he is 8 years old, and someow he absolutely adores my brother. always running to him, treating him like a big brother. I am jealous, I want him as my younger brother! hahahahaha.

Meals there were pretty simple, dinner always some kind of steamboat, either seafood or dumplings or beef or octopus or whatever! loads of kimchi though. but they go quite healthy la, their food not the oily kind like char kway teow, oyster omelette, so pretty good=D nvr put on any weight!

Spent $200 over dollars just on souvenirs which i had to fork out myself, i couldnt believe it man! cost of living pretty high over there=((

Now back in Singapore, NTU Hall 5. back to reality. LOL, lucky i had a break, otherwise i think i am going to exhaust myself soon=(( Sad for my fellow JCRC people, but never mind, let's all jiayou together and work hard, then after that, we can all play hard together! Gambatei Hall 5!!

2009-12-03T21:35:00.006+08:00

Yes! Exams are finally over! Although I felt that my exams were over on 20th Nov, when it started. hahaha, I am so screwed for this semester, but never mind, I will work hard again for the next semesters! hahahahaha..

So anyway, went to zouk/phuture yesterday, happy bunch outing with the sad exception of roy coz of his exams still, and enghow, ps kia.
Chilling outside, near the river, got chivas from holiday inn..

me and roomie!

honestly, I think we are the super red ones..

me and my dear bodyguards..

me and kelven..

our electrocuted part III..

Desmond, hua yang xing nan!

had shots again, but i think other than those, didnt really drink much? other than the usual=D Was a bit high at first, but die down after awhile.

with aaron, from afro. Saw amal and jiamin too!

Yay!! dear is coming back on the 5th! finally! Miss him super alot! He prepared carepacks for me, wrote 10 letters for me too! Sadly, cnt go and pick him, reaching singapore in the wee hours=(( Never mind, I want to meet him still! before i go off to Korea!

Losing myself as I grow..

2009-11-20T19:05:00.002+08:00

Nostalgia. 07S101. Miss you all.

2009-11-11T20:42:00.002+08:00

Exams have yet to start, but I am already dead damn looking forward to the activities after it!!

a) KOREA trip with family! OMG, i cant wait for this.. loads of photos i hope=DD 10th-17th Dec, dun jio me out during this time!!

b) Post exam celebrations with happy bunch!!

c) Meet up with glen after he comes back from brunei!!

d) Meeting up with what-is-left-of-wilhelm and go on our sentosa trip!!

e) Meet the usual HW101 group ppl for minds' cafe outing?? I seriously duno whether this will come soon not..

f) durian with glen, anna, calvin!! Long dated outing la!!

g) Xmas gathering with JCRC!

h) New year celebration!! OMG! how time flies!!

And not to mention the preparatory IH period!! Whee, loads of exercise!!

And I saw this dress on BonitoChico, and it is really nice, and although no more stocks, I am so going to get that in their backorders!!

I really should stop shopping so much!!

2009-10-29T01:59:00.002+08:00

I remember not too long ago, some anonymous person left a tag, stating that he/she likes the way I type my blog post, no restraints, no hold backs, no barriers.

I just wrote what I like to wrote, and I was proud of it. I remember saying " Heck! If you dont like my blog, I ain't forcing you to read!"

I know no boundaries, no limits. To the extent, I was known to be too straight forward, hurtful and even harsh. It is not only limited to my blog post, but also in my interactions with others. Others admire my straightforwardness, while some criticize my bluntness.

I hate to apologise, I hate to say that I was wrong, but somehow, I always managed to get that somewhat sinful word out, with all my sincerity.

I started holding back whatever I want to say, leaving it to my personal blog, left only to people whom I felt was close to me. In a few months, I could no longer tell the person who gazes back at me in the mirror, biting her lips, as if dying to say something, held back by peers, societal norms.

Held back, there was nothing I could have done except smash the mirror, hoping in vain to find my real self behind, only to realise that there is nothing. I am just an empty shell, with what people perceive me to be, an arrogant bitch, an acquaintance, a party girl.

Without any idea of who I am, I stepped into the next phase of my life, the oh-so-looked-upon university life. Unsure of expectations, I soon tumbled into a life I could only wish for a few months back. It all seem so real.

But we all have to be brought back to reality. There is no such things is 100% well-liked person in any community. I have learnt that through the lessons taught, and my gratitude to those who taught me the way.

But yet, we all still have to put on a mask every single day, to face the people you know dislike you. I used to think that I am being hypocritical, but I realise my mistake. We plainly make use of each other. Whether you like it or not, you are either made use of, or making use of someone.

Don't deny. Only you yourself know it deep down inside.

It is such a hypocritical world here.

Not an emo post, but just a reflection kind of post=D

2009-10-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

desmond's birthday!

Finally, a picture with the all the happy bunch!! WHHEEE!!

My tan line!! ahhh!!

We celebrated desmond's birthday on thurs, which was also hall pub day! hahaha, did alot of crap things, and we drank( bunch of drunkards!).. It was great fun again, and we finally took a picture together as an entire happy bunch!!

Boy am i grateful for this people! LOL, always laugh like crazy during our secret gatherings! made-not-so-secret by my laughs which many said can be heard blocks away, really, the exaggeration.

2009-10-21T22:30:00.005+08:00

Had a fabulous class gathering on sat, 17th!

I mean, we haven meet for ages! it was nice to see everybody, and everybody seems pretty much unchanged.. just that the guys grew darker, the girls prettier!! hahahahaha, of course, we have 6 chio bu in our 07S101 class!!

Hall life is pretty hectic for me=(( sobs, but it was still great fun at the end of stupid events!

Somehow, darn blogger refuses to let me upload the photos=( never mind, i shall upload them another time!

jcrc retreat was great fun during the last few days of sept.. it was a great boomz event after all!!

happy bunch gathering was fabulous too! first time we took a near group photo! hahaha, never mind, desmond's birthday!

joint hall events settling in, and i am starting to feel the heat!! ahhh.. but i will survive, what with the support of my friends, my family, and my dear glendon phua!! hahahaha

2009-10-02T00:15:00.008+08:00

Celebrated our 2nd year anniversary which coincides with children's day!! haha, had dinner at the ilLido Italian Restaurant at Sentosa Golf Club!

getting onto the monorail!

Compliments i would say! yum yum, like crispy bread with olive oil, to be drizzled plentifully=D

the service there was splendour, and the ambience there was also really great=D we ordered their set meal, which had 4 courses! yum yum! out of convenience and also we are basically a bunch of noobs=D

parma ham with rock melon, port wine reduction! it was good, the salty ham and the sweet rock melon compliments each other perfectly! appetizer was really great!

Squid ink fettucine with ginger crab! was abit apprehensive at first, after all, it is squid ink, and its black?? but it all turns out quite well!! mainly for aesthetic purposes??

Don't know why this picture turns out this way, but oh well, it has kinda nice effect to it=D

beef tenderloin with mushrooms and bone marrow sauce! wow, the beef was really good, best beef i have tasted! yum yum! lucky didnt choose the other main course!

tiramisu!! had another dessert too, molten lava chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream, but we devoured it almost immediately?? and when finishing, then we smack our heads, coz forgot to take a picture of it! dumbness.. but both the desserts were just great, especially the latter, the cold ice cream and the warm chocolate cake=DD yumyum and triple yum!

the remnants of the tiramisu!

us being really really contented! have to be contented, the bill came up to $207 like that? Crazy! But it was money well spent in a way=D

at the lobby! the chair was so comfortable, I could just fall asleep there, or maybe coz i am just too tired, rushing out with the proposals etc=((

this is damn cock! how dumb can a peacock get! bimbo..

back at vivocity's roof top garden!to take more pictures!

emo me!

my drunkard bf!

it has been a great 2 years with you my dear, and we have been through alot of ups and downs, our fair share of laughter and tears=D Although I haven got much time to spend with you now, I just hope for you to understand that no matter what, I still love you alot=D I dont wish to break over silly stuffs, misunderstandings, tantrums etc. I still wish for us to spend alot more anniversaries together.. And thanks for the fabulous dinner!

2009-10-01T13:19:00.003+08:00

had our JCRC retreat at Aranda Chalet. it was fun=D had our photoshoot in the afternoon, formal and in school uniform! haha, there were so many MJs!! but only 2 real ones! Camwhore like siao=DD more photos on facebook, though i think they made the album private.

haha, nope, this is not the MJ tie=DD

haha, yingying was trying to scandal with me!! apprehensive!

haha, Chunling's idea of a scandal! she was so excited about it! LOL.

bad girls unite?? LOL. my hair CMI

hahaha, trying my very best not to laugh, but i think shirley did a pretty good job.

now the nerds!!

haha, sporty?? NAH!

the real MJC students!!

LOL, duno what the guys doing!

all the MJ ppl that day=D

dinner was at Just Acia! haha, wore our uniforms there with violent objections from the guys! Quite true, they haven worn it for maybe 3 years?? hahaha!

Overall, had a great time at the chalet. the bbq on the second night was fabulous, although there was just too much food=(( sobs. but all the rubbish, and BOOMZ!! it was great fun! never expected that though=DD

Anyway dear, Happy 2nd Anniversary=D looking forward to our dinner!! more pics to be uploaded i hope=D

2009-09-25T22:34:00.001+08:00

I remember someone telling me before, that one can never hope to find true friends in the university. They can smile at you and walk with you through your glamourous moments and yet dump you when you most need them, their helping hand.

Because of this, I am pretty skeptical. But then I thought to myself, if I am going to not bother hoping to find real friends, I really wouldnt have a chance to have true real friends in University.

Going to camps, it was easily the best decision i have ever made. because of that, i met my lovely lovely psychology friends. and thankfully for them, i didnt had to sit alone in LTs, etc. i have people to pon lessons with me, like today's mass walkout! we laugh, we study, we had our unglam moments tgt. i do hope the few of us will still be going for lessons blah blah blah tgt and stuffs like tt!!

hall camp was fine, but what was the best was that from then on, i think JASH had a great part to play, i found a group of people I know I can count on when i need them to be there=D we better be able to find a date where we 6 can go out and have fun!! and take a picture together!! we never take together before!!

school has really been great for me. yeah, so what if i have met with a few bumps here and there? so what if there are people who hates my guts in hall??

I have my friends, and that is all i am going to care about for now! hahahahaha, ok, and also my business manager stuff!

2009-09-22T21:37:00.006+08:00

on the bus back from cult night!

with kelven and his bag!

celebrated liyi's birthday at jurong point's nyny with friends=D service is exceptionally great! really really=D more pics on facebook itself=D

meh meh, jiayi, me, birthday girl!!

me jiayi and liling! LOL, taking this while we walking, not bad ok! ok, fine, we walked stopped walked stopped=D

the retarded pictures we took!! basically mehmeh decided to spam jiayi's cam like siao?? lol. fabulous day with them!! more of these coming up k??

School has been ok, although i do wish to be back in jc and its relative simplicity of stuffs?? LOL, but always look forward. Life has not been that bad for me. I have a group of friends in hall and in school to crap gossip talk cock with=DD been studying harder than i have ever back in mjc, and i am super proud of myself=D

Alright, so what if people dont like you? u want more friends who are really like acquaintances, or real friends who stick by you no matter what? i rather the latter if you dont mind.

if they criticise you, instead of taking their comments seriously,, how about taking it with a pinch of salt, and smile about it? I am sure your critics will be hopping mad if they know tt you are still having a fine time=DD they just want to see you emo; i am positive i dont want them to see me that way=D

to anybody who is feeling sad/stressed, know that you will always have a close group of people to relate to, and they are your friends and family. things will work out no matter what=D just look on the bright side of life!

2009-09-16T03:01:00.003+08:00

pageant video. joke event=D

for the uninitiated, the story goes..

the girl sees the guy always looking and smiling at the gadget,so somehow managed to get it. and realised that it was all her videos and pics=D so yeah, the ending, can figure out de la=D

2009-09-15T02:47:00.006+08:00

DND is finally over=DDD whee, no more tottering ard in heels!! haha, it was quite fine la i would say. i mean after all, we did get to sit down and eat=D though everything in a rush, but we still found time to talk cock=DD just let the pics do the talking.. didnt upload all=D all in facebook, so just check it out=DD
in the casual outfit=D

performance!! we sang 'lucky' by jason mraz=D trembled coz was really scared=DD

the final outfit, the formal one=D so glad i didnt had to wear the one with sequins=DD lucky lucky. then it will be like getai??

answering the qns. mine was "if you were to appear on a magazine, which will it be and why?" Ans: Men's health, protray a better image of women=D Lame ans i think=D

all the pageant contestants!

King and Queen! he is my partner dylan!!

me and kelven!! he was the hall prince! and his partner, xue yi, hall princess!

me and my bodyguards!!

with zhi hao!

the 3 of us in pageant!! cmi sia our expressions!

anna!!!!!!

me and JOEL!! accused of being biased yet again!! sheesh!

kena ps by my bodyguards=(( coz they say i biased=(

me and eng how

desmond!

Went to somewhere in boat quay to chill=D it was fine=D nice to have pageant finally over man! stay ard for quite abit of time=D had supper with OG first before joining them=D left boat quay ard 6plus in the morning! by the time i reach home, my dad was awake!! only managed to sleep at 730!

the impossibly thick makeup. horrible! 1hour plus lei my make up!!

Kudos to those who supported me=DD thanks alot=DD

and thanks anna zhihao and joel for the wonderful flowers=DD touched=D

2009-09-09T20:04:00.002+08:00

Actually, u cant say that my hall life is exactly interesting. I mean, aside from birthday celebrations, i guess life is pretty mudane? the people i have met makes my life a whole lot lot interesting. i am serious.

For the very concerned people out there (and i do appreciate it=D) I am still with glendon=DD and we are still very very happy together=DD celebrating our 2nd anniversary really soon, so do keep a lookout for pictures yeah??

hall pageant is coming up this sat, and i cant wait for it to end=DD whee, no more tottering around in heels=DD

was at HW101 the craft of writing today. had to write 5 sentences about a word with 5 different connotations. so for us, our word is 'stand'. made it into a story. here goes=D

" This is a story about Tom and Mary.

Mary can not stand the sight of Tom. When he got to know that, everything around him came to a stand still. He decides to go to a taxi stand and committed suicide there. Before he died, Tom thought of her and realised that his justification for suicide still stands.

However, dun fret audience, this is a actually a stand-up comedy!"

That was the main gist of our presentation. LOL.

Was affected, if not largely, by the happenings yesterday. but kudos to all those who felt that something was wrong with me and asked after me. really appreciate you guys alot alot=DD

To my dearest roomie, ANNA!! hahahahahahaha, yes, really blessed to have you as my roomie!! I hope we will be roomies for the next few years! always laugh like crazy when any of us do the really stupid things=D wheeee!! thank goodness we have quite a bit of similarities!!

To my all my dearest friends in school and hall (you all know who you are=DD), lucky to have met you people! was really worried about not being able to adapt in school and hall, but everything just went well thanks to you. school is mundane, but thanks to you people, it has been great fun so far!!

I am not just going to balance my studies and JCRC stuffs (if i do get in). My dearest friends will also be included in the balance=DDD

And of course, there is still the jc friends=DD i wun forget you people too. u people have really helped in some way or another to shape the person i am today=D

Lastly, my boyfriend! there is just so much to say. been so busy now, i feel that i have neglected you=(( sorry for not spending enough time with you for the past few weeks. still trying to strike a balance=(( especially my family too=DD thanks for being ever so so understanding. Love you!!

2009-09-03T00:22:00.001+08:00

School has been ok. great to meet all the various OG people around in school etc, and just chit chat. of course, i have had missed a few impt lessons, particularly in the morning, due to my really late night activities. i guess that is one thing about hall life;there is no such thing as 8hours of sleep.

alright, maybe there is, but not in my hall life. being able to sleep for 6hours is already a miracle. i swear, as i am typing this at 12am, i know i will be done in half an hour, but i think i will probably end up sleeping at 3plus or even 4. for god knows what.

Life has not been that great to me. Dear tells me to just take it with a pinch of salt. but i am not that kind of person. i think i am a worry wart, not the super extreme kind though.

Have you ever been pushed to your aunt's place when your very own mother simply hated your very own existence? Have you ever been known to your immediate family as a curse? Have you ever had to survive on bread for days when your family is having great food at the very same time? Have you ever felt that nobody in this world really cares for you, and that your living or death does not impact anybody's lives at all?? Have you ever experienced all this??

Well, I haven't. But my dad has. He is really naggy and to some extent really irritating and overly-protective, but deep down inside, he is still my dad. He has never experienced family love while he was young. And as I am typing this, all sorts of emotions are running inside me. I hate my late grandmother for treating him that way; but I must still be grateful to her, because if she hadn't treat him that way, my dad wouldn't have met my mum, and there wouldn't be a me.

He is what he is today because he grew up in such an environment. He is in a lot, way better situation as compared to his siblings. I am thankful he did not choose to walk down the path of destruction, and embark on a journey most of his siblings are now wandering at. I am thankful he didnt choose to give up on himself and turn to crime and drugs.

He is someone I really really have always respected, with or without the cane. And I know how great his burden is now.

I am in university now, my sis will be joining me next year, and if all goes well for my brother, he will probably end up in one of the poly.

The financial burden is just crazy. And all I wanted to do is just to alleviate, to share his burden. I just want to work for my hostel fees, and also my daily expenses. Essentially, he will just be paying my tuition fees.

But no, i am too useless as a daughter. I cant do anything to help him. Nothing at all. And all I can do is to really have fun, when I am supposed to be doing my best in school. What am i doing??

2009-08-26T02:15:00.004+08:00

i look like a freaking potianak=((( damn damn white=((

with the seniors=D roses courtesy of anna girl and zhi hao!! thanks!

me and dylan, my partner=D

anna managed to get this quite nice photo=DDD

haha, realise i haven been updating my readers ( if there is any) so yeah. so anyway, the pictures were at butterfact last fri. hall bash. poor turnout rate, but hey, i am not complaining=D

makeup was superbly thick?? wth. spent 0.5hours cleaning it off la when i reach home. didnt drink much that day coz of a promise i made to my dear dear boyfriend=DD

so anyway, hall life so far has been really fun=D always always never fail to sleep after 3am. honestly. always got something on and stuffs like that. pageant trg, then supper, then htht/tctc.

but it is still fun. intend to really have alot of fun first, cause this is really like the last few years to enjoy before stepping out into the big big world=D

pageant training, ups and downs. loads of catwalking etc, but the people there really made it alot more fun=D alot of talking cock and rubbish. but still, cnt wait for it to be over=D 12th Sept, jiayou!

starting to form our own groups and stuff, and i dont blame anyone. i guess, there will always be people whom we can click more to. oh well, but i do hope we will still mix together as an OG. but it is nice to know that there will be people you can always makan with etc. hahaha. fun fun.

dear is in outfield now which is pretty sad. but oh well, there is the work to keep me distracted. honestly, i think i am the only slack person in my wilhelm OG. i am always clueless during lectures and stuff. i really need to buck up!!

been trying to go for runs more, but of all times=(( cutting down on suppers too=D

I wish i was back as a shadow in the background. it is alot more peaceful, and there isn't alot of people looking at what you doing. I wish i was back to my innocent self. it is alot easier to trust people and really believe in whatever they say. I wish everything will be alot simpler in my life. It is alot easier to deal with.

but i am quite lucky. i have got a great bunch of friends. sure, we do shoot each other and make fun, but we all know when is time to be serious. i am lucky to have found a few of these friends in hall. may not have known each other for a long time, but i believe our friendships forged will stay for life. that is what i sincerely hope=DDDD

2009-08-13T16:37:00.008+08:00

HAVOC ( HAll V Orientation Camp) was absolutely a blast! in hall 5, although people say it looks like a factory, i think the people there still damn fun!! hahaha.

10hours of sleep over 5nights, translating to average 2 hours. sleeping time is like 3hours, 2hours,0hours,5hours,0hours... hahaha. was in SKULLOM!!

lucky i have another MJ girl in my group. melissa, seen her around i guess. sadly, anna girl not in my OG=( sobs.

OG was still uber fun, probably not the first day, more of after the HTHT (heart to heart talk).. going to be in hall pageant, so will be busy for the upcoming nights, but ppl can still jio me=DDDD

Joint hall bash was on 11th aug, it was at zouk. craziness. went there with the intention of not going crazy, sadly i failed=( it all started with the shots that wai meng got. we chiong like nobody's business. zhihao still tell me " drink slowly, if not confirm dizzy later". and i replied " but the cup so small, can finish in a gulp??"

went down to the dance floor, and heng anna girl was there. the guys did a great job in protecting us. raj tried to break through the defence, but only succeeded after a few times, LOL.

then it was back to drinking. drink like siao la. was super wasted. then the pictures can do the explaining.

me and anna!! already damn damn red liao..

yunsheng, my GL.

my bodyguards (zhihao and waimeng) since the start of hall camp!

andrew was damn damn high liao.

wai meng.

love group photos. always so happy and crazy.

roy, he is a wonderful dancer for a guy!

me and my Secret Pal! joel. we won a picture of the year during the camp!

outside the toilet already. just rmb wanting to close my eyes damn badly and lean on whatever i can lean.

Raj still managed to find us outside the toilet!!

in a daze already.

in the bus liao, just want to hide from the camera.

IN ANY CASE, i was not that wasted till i was lying on the pavement anywhere. I just vomited, competed with the guys to walk/hop/run in a straight line, said a whole lot of nonsense like upon reaching hall 5, "HEY, I know this place! it looks sooooo familiar!" and shouting bye to whoever was leaving.

I guess that explains why when people walk into hall 5 canteen the next day, they kept asking if i was ok.

want thank dear for being so so so so so so understanding, I still love you alot!! really sorry for the past few days, it has just been so hectic, so didnt have alot of time to chit chat.. but i do think i will have more free time now alr=DDDDDDD

want thank whoever had treat me tt day to the arrays of drinks, like a real heartfelt thanks!

want thank all those who help me get back safely, mainly anna girl (lucky u not drunk), my bodyguards, my og, and a few other seniors, who probably laugh like siao too with my antics=(

2009-07-29T12:46:00.003+08:00

the NTU HSS CAMP!! it was fun except the really bad fever i kena, reached 40degrees at one point somemore=( thankfully, it was not h1n1. these pictures all kop from the fb group de. didnt take too much, coz damn lazy to scroll thru all the pictures. so only last day pics, and yes, i went back for the pageant.

oh yeah, in team AFRO!! though we didnt win the best og, i think it was really good, think coz there was 3 GLs out of action and alot of our ppl kena sent home, we still preservere=DD

Joined the Psychology Society camp, which was pretty good=DD. $18bucks for 2shirts, food including bbq, and also the chalet. we won the best og and got sakae vouchers!! Stupid blogger, make me type in some stupid format, oh well, just let the pictures do the talking!! it was just 2days1night btw=DDD

and i was in Wilhelm Wundt, we were so shocked we won! after tt ask committee, they say coz we very high and went crazy! break camp and had lunch at swensons with group and amos! credits to him for the pictures, although there is still a zillion pics of us still with him!! and he remembers me from the tea party the other time!

2009-07-16T21:47:00.006+08:00

we went to eat teppanyaki again but this time, it was not that good as what we had on our 1st anniversary, maybe cause we went at like 8plus or maybe the service really suck this time round.

went to the fountain soon after that because really didnt feel like fighting the crowd. was like camwhoring there until it started to rain. rats, it was so damn romantic man, if not for the darn cars vrooming around=D has been quite some time since we can really spend quality time together cause of his 3weeks confinement.

i think there is something wrong with my eyes recently. nothing must happen to them!! they are my most most important features!! LOL.

finally watched transformers after so so long. ok, i really wasnt in a hurry to watch it. it was more of to pei dear cause the poor guy got confinement when it came out, and nobody want wait for him, LOL. nevertheless the cinema was still like damn bloody packed la. SINGAPORE where got recession!!!

been eating so sinful stuff recently man. swensons on monday with anna girl together with a sinful milo indulgence. and today, new york new york super sinful mudpie with chocolate ice cream!!! thankfully, have been running for the past few weeks, so still not so bad, in any case, must start running soon again!!!

i realise it is always better to not expect any phone calls at night. it is always better to have a surprise phonecall from dear than getting sad coz he cant call=DD jiayou independent girlfriend!!

2009-07-06T12:36:00.003+08:00

lol, the quality cmi man, i know, i have shaky hands la ok??

proud of him, got 2 awards, company best pt and also platoon best=DDDD

visited him together with his family at SAFTI MI. that lucky boy got so much food la, still got cup noodles.. specially baked chocolate chips and macademia nuts cookies for him, lucky boy.

sadly, didnt get to go up that tower thingy, sad man, coz it was raining=( oh well, saw super alot of people. saw yong xiong, who is same section with glen, and told glen about that incident, joke man=DDD so qiao, after that, he like damn awkward to see us, he still thought i was glen's sister!!!

nice to see dear after so long, his sir-s damn nice, still allow them to hug their gf 2 times. yay, receive my energy boost alr!!!

last but not least, leave you all with my dog, keeping cool with shades, he really damn vain, put specs on him, he growl like crazy. then put shades ah, he happily wear and still let me take photo, usually he camera-shy de=DDD

2009-06-26T21:21:00.002+08:00

lol, we participated in a day camp today. it was crazy, supposed to meet anna at 6.20am at tamp mrt, and i was still lazing around in bed at 6.02am?? thank goodness she sms me, or i die man=( went to kent ridge park, which was damn far, set up the trail and everything and waited for the kids to arrive in a bus which was 1hour plus late.

dear called and we chatted for quite a while. the silly boy, honestly, he is so cute man=DDD OCS proving to be too boring..

hike into the place, so it was quite boring, no animals to look at.. but when we went in in the morning, we saw a woodpecker!! exciting man=DDD

had lunch which was a funny affair?? the kids having sugar rush, some of the kids are just so cute man, but there were some who were super irritating, i swear i will hold them up by there heads and let their little legs flail in the air, lol, tt sounded familiar man=DDDD

more pictures on anna's blog, haha, took with the kids, awwww...

saw a wonderful rainbow today, it was so pretty, make me so happy man=DDDD

on a sad note, michael jackson passed away like yesterday, not like a fan, but its sad right, like you really have no idea what is right around the corner, waiting to happen to you. no absolute in this world i guess.
lol, these pictures taken during the elias park pri camp. super joke. then me and anna were just like entertaining ourselves with these wonderful pictures..

i think this picture is my contact display pic on her phone, i bet she laughs like crazy man..

just a random picture, i burst out laughing=DDDDD

yes, this is the picture that makes me laugh nonstop whenever i look at it man. keep looking at it on the bus ride home, and laugh like crazily, and anna trying her very best to keep my mouth shut, lol.

2009-06-21T00:15:00.002+08:00

only uploaded two pictures this time round.. too lazy to wait for the freaking lagtop( pun intended)..

just came back from celebrating Qahhar's birthday..shahidah just a sweet girlfriend, plan so much for him.. can see that he was genuinely shocked to see us jump out from behind the wall or smtg, and even more shocked to receive his present, ipod.. haha, happy for him man, found himself such a nice girlfriend=DDDD

still waiting for pictures from his pop.. but most likely will be out in facebook.. till then, tata=D

2009-06-10T21:21:00.004+08:00

THE MALE EGO OUGHT TO BE SACRIFICED FOR THE GREATER GOOD.

haha, this is a damn nice quote, from me. i have like so many whys now.

why do guys expect their girlfriends to think from their point of view, when the guys themselves do not think from the girlfriends' point of view??

why isit that some guys find it so hard to apologise for their wrongdoings??

why do guys twist and warp truth to 'prove' that they are right??

why cant they treat their girlfriends nicely after capturing their heart, as equally as when they wooing them??

why are some guys so big man minded(in chinese) da nan ren zhu yi??

why do some guys plainly take but dont give??

i guess it all boils to the male ego!!!

sorry, i am just seething after listening to my colleague. gosh. we shared our stories and concluded tt guys are so so so cannot-admit-they-are-wrong. like they will die?? her whole story like damn sad, make me want to cry. can see she was about to break into tears again.

why do guys just like to bully girls??

oh gosh. anyway, I will upload abt glendon's pop soon, when i get hold of the pictures. apparently, i forgot abt my camera. wtf. dun want talk abt him in this post. it is a feminist post for now.

2009-06-07T16:53:00.002+08:00

Dinner yesterday at ECP. LOL. was still thinking why suddenly Liyi want to meet up with me and chat sia.

turns out tt raj jeremy joe were there too, to have dinner tgt. pity zhen girl not there man, would have been more fun. so keep pestering Liyi why the sudden meet up, and the guys just didnt help her at all, just snigger there until they finally decided it was time to let me know.

my belated birthday celebration. LOL, these people damn funny sia. oh well, but it was sweet of them=D I realised almost like everytime i eat with these people, i dont have to pay?? LOL, next time if got any more get togethers, please, let me pay?? but it was really sweet of them still=D

think it is not supposed to be belated, just cause always i cant make it or a few of them cant make it. but it was still a good surprise!!!

no pictures unfortunately, had a good time laughing at shit stuff.

and i cant wait for school to start soon!!! if me and anna ends up in same hostel room, we are going to have a hell of a time man, LOL..

2009-05-24T21:40:00.003+08:00

Just came back from work. NOPE, not the lancome one=D another one, like camp facilitator? very fun though=D

really tired now, going to sleep any moment. but fuck, I was damn bloody unlucky can?? This job got 3days, 1 is training, 1 is preparations,1 is actual race. so Out of these 3days, 2days I kena BIRD SHIT!! Or so i think. I mean what will fall from the sky, and when you touch it, it is like brown colour???

twice, same spot, on my hair!!! AHHHH.. I was ready to spam vulgarities somemore. Kena it today morning. I was the 1st to wake, so went to the top storey of carpark to get some breeze. then was about to leave when I heard a "PIACK". And I was like WTF, DONT TELL ME I AM THAT SUAY TO KENA IT AGAIN!

Not wrong, there was no trees at the top level, so I guess I am really effing unlucky. Fuck, still cant believe it.

Sorry, I am sure if you kena it twice in 1week, you will also be like me!

Will be helping out with this job. and my colleague at parkway persuaded me not to quit in the end. I agreed with the condition that I will only be at parkway and nowhere else. HMPH!

and i have got one more tuition kid! whee, more money again=D

Dear's POP coming like really soon!! Cant wait for tt day to arrive man! 9th june. And i still stupidly go book my ftt tt day! stupid!

serves myself right, in the end, go all the way to cdc to change the bloody date, and I am really lucky there were june slots still=DDDDD

2009-05-15T19:07:00.003+08:00

LOL, I JUST CALLED MY AGENT TO NOTIFY HIM THAT I

AM QUITTING!!

super happy with myself! haha. tried his very best to convince me to stay on, but sadly, I am not interested already. This job has really reached my limit. Seen all the extreme sides of people, but I wouldnt deny I have learnt alot from this job.

And I have signed up for NTU Psychology! excited man to start school. LOL. hey, i mean, it is my aim since secondary school! LOL.

2009-05-13T21:44:00.003+08:00

Work has been irritating to me lately!! I am quitting soon!! I cant stand it!! Finding new jobs liao. Honestly, anybody got lobangs? i dont mind sales, admin, invilgilating, or tuition!! I am honestly open to all types!!

went out with Anna on 8/5. haha, super fun. went to get the staff purchase Lancome perfume from Parkway. Brought along cookies I baked the day before! She finished it like so fast la!!

brought it for the colleagues too, since they are the nicest bunch I have ever worked with!

went to Berrylite to find cake!! my very belated cake! didnt get to eat any on my birthday! so we bought the triple chocolate cake!! Hahaha..

We bought yoghurt too!yumyum! Healthier version of ice cream I always say!

I found that can only have bigger eyes if you close your mouth=D

me with the cake!!Whee, thanks girl!

Mother's Day was spent earlier for us cause of me working on the 10th, stupid girl! Went to eat at the Indonesian restaurant at Furama Riverfront. It was quite good!! Food galore!!

Me and my sister!! totally had to beg her to take a picture! tsk.

Lazy to upload all the pictures, yeah I am a lazy bum.

Pissed off with work, totally off my phone to prevent anybody from calling to pester me to work! if you say so in a nice way, if i good mood, i will still go help out lor. you say in a demanding way, to shit with you man!

Dear had a swollen ligament, so he didnt go for field camp. poor thing. OK, i made a big fuss! I thought it tore or something, and he laughed at me. Hmph=( Oh well, he got MC, and lucky thing, I hope, it wouldnt affect the chance of him going OCS. he just likes to aim high high.

visited him on tues, thank goodness he is alright. Thanked me profusely for visiting him! so cute of him. HAHAHA.

went to run today! super shiok man the feeling. feeling all flabby man. need to diet!

Yeah, sure, I just had cheese baked chilli crab served with man tou at Eighteen Chefs! date with anna, yes again! Service really good!! LOL, the waiter keep looking at us eat man, or rather looking at ANNA... Heehee.

he thought we were sisters, i was 17, she 22!!! I was like LOL, Anna totally sian! HAHAHA. then keep saying Anna pretty, then say both of us pretty, although I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST TO AVOID SUSPICION!!! keep chatting with us man. tsktsk, Anna Anna. (LOL, sorry calvin! just irritating anna now=D)

2009-05-03T07:38:00.003+08:00

Alright, first, thanks to all the sweeties and dearies who sms me Happy birthday or just wish me in another way=D

work on my birthday, which was good, i hit my target!! it is low to begin with, so wth, nvm=D

had dinner at Tung Lok, which i paid ok?? yes, my family's custom to have the birthday person treating the family. but last time is like 50%?? this time, 100% lor... crazily expensive but its ok=D

parents got me angbao, sis and bro buying anything within their budget.

HAHA, and dear sent a bouquet of flowers over to me!!! lol, know where these guys get their flowers from, but i still wana thank xinyun, the bouquet was lovely, kudos to your florist!!!

only celebrated my birthday with dear on the 2nd. no pictures unfortunately. haiz, make the blog so boring right??

went to eat at shin kushiya. HAHAHA, we have eaten at almost all the shin whatever.. we shall eat at shin kuriya on our anniversary??

the food was yumyum=D
of course, you pay what,you get what lor.

wolverine is a nice show, haha, if you consider the fact that i didnt check my hp or watch once=D

got those darn blisters again, spoil the entire night.

2009-04-29T10:09:00.003+08:00

haha, ok, forgot to mention like a whole lot of chunk of stuff or smtg?

had dinner with joe and zhen on 13th. haha, joe came pick us up from our house, and it was damn fun sia. had dinner at block 85 again.. shiok. fried oysters, bbq stingray, char kway teoy etc. yum yum. EH, i am supposed to go on a diet!!

raj came to find me for lunch.. and we chatted. haha, the ugly side of Singaporeans etc. i tell you, in school, we hardly like agree on stuff, must be opposite sides, so this is like one of the few rare moments we both on the same side.LOL.

work has been a bitch. so many things happened in the short 1 month. bloody security guard accuse me of stealing sample, then switch story say i stole some stocks. then wanted catch me at first, then i was gone by then?? WTF. if you think i stole anything, you bloody hell stop me when u see me put it in my bag or whatever.

you dont talk so much after that. i have a super clear conscience and you have no bloody evidence, except your foul accusation. chi-ko-pek!!

went to pick dear up on sunday, i think he was one of the lucky few with girlfriends coming to pick them up. LOL. botak boy.so cute. HAHAHA.

spend time with him on monday before going to work.LOL. my colleague same birthday as me!! caslyn girl. haha, she wanted invite me down to her party at ST James, but sorry girl, i am not the type go chiong! and i know you will want to introduce all your guy friends to me, no thanks!!=DDDD

got my NTU letter just yesterday. now i am really confused. NUS more established, but most of my friends even my boyfriend going NTU. AHHHHH.. somebody help me?? i think i ought to be slapped.. honestly..

2009-04-25T10:50:00.002+08:00

Haven blog for ages. haha, busy with work la. seriously.

forgot to mention my dear girls came find me during work, zhen and liyi. haha, ended up chatted like siao at jacks' place. not much gossips this time, mostly updates about each others lives. so fun, although only 1 hour. look forward to more of this=DD

then went to the BMT thingy on the 13th, send glen in. didnt expect to part like so suddenly. and hey, i didnt cry!! haha=DDD.interesting to see the army life lor.

work like siao after that. after work, just feel so tired, go home and sleep.

went swimming with anna on 18th. shiok sia. then still go jalan kayu have prata, the sinful meal. LOL. had my free meal from eugene that day too. sichuan cusine=D thank goodness kitty came along, otherwise its abit weird?? haha. LOL. odd company, but was very good food=D

had first driving lesson on 19th, damn fun!!! drove on the road coming back, and it was bloody fun sia. HAHA!!!! the thrill of it, so cool=DDD

worked full shift on 22nd, and expected to work morning again on 23rd. can die sia. parkway so not near. luckily, they found a new full timer to be stationed there, so lucky me, no more full time schedule=D shiok. i want to slack more.

BTW, i finding more tuition. anybody have any deals, just get me=D

and dear is coming out tmr!! hip hip hurray!! haha=D think i going to rush down from work to pick him up. i miss my silly boy..

2009-04-09T21:24:00.010+08:00

i think this is nice, my hand block the flash partially=DD gifted me, wakakaka.

on the FLYER!

i like this picture.. haha, quite nice=D

finally, a day off from work and wonderful day spent with my dear glen!!

dear was trying to hard to stop me from shopping. almost every shop we pass by,got sales!! HAHA, cannot spend so much.

went to lunch at ku-shinbo at suntec. the food there, amazing. not bad la, i feel, maybe cause i had no expectations?? Failed to take any pictures, coz the darn batteries bail out on me. wth, i swear i changed it.

dear ate loads of salmon sashimi. haha, he happy only. ok, fall short of his expectations, but oh well. somehow the dessert 'open' my appetite even more

got more reliable batteries before setting off to the FLYER!! yes, tickets only $10!!!

the scenery not exactly splendid what with the construction of IR still undergoing, and alot of other stuff?? but it was still worth that 10bucks! haha. asin, 30mins, it was a good ride with great company?

so how did we get tickets for 10bucks?? coz students special!! haha, i am still a student, with a valid student pass=D have to write particulars, so put institution as MJC. LOL.

after that, tapao popeye's mashed potato, and took a cab to marina. Stupid i know, but my feet hurting so thanks dear=D

watched confessions.funny for some parts, but after a while, i thought it was getting draggy?? haha, i am a fussy person i would say. if i were to start thinking "gosh, this is draggy" or take my phone to check for smses, then the movie is gone. for me at least=DDD

cancelled tuition coz it was way too late. glendon left for his club trg, and i contemplated going down to parkway, to visit the guys. but oh well, heck. lazy and tired to do so..

I think it will be quite some time before me and dear will get to spend such wonderful time tgt again. but nvm, i am still looking forward to it=DDD

my dear going army soon, take care dear. dont let anything happen to you alright?? jiayou jiayou!!

2009-04-06T21:57:00.002+08:00

Work has kept me so busy=(

was at parkway for the past few days. tiring to travel there. KNS. lucky lucky, there is some fragrances promotion, and the booth in front our counter, so ended up talking and crapping with 2 out of the 3 guys there, jeremy and one eugene tay!!

So qiao, another eugene tay right? all same age de, so can click quite well. even though they not the people i usually mix with.LOL.

Joe drop by while he having lunch. haha, you are the 1st person to drop by!

and Glendon wanted to surprise me and have lunch together. but sadly, I had lunch already with eugene. sorry dear=(

hahaha, i have a free meal from this new eugene!! hahaha. tempted to continue the stupid bet, but later, have to eat with him for 3 meals, no matter who treating. I dont want lei.

and kitty, my colleague, say she can tell tt glendon my bf. LOL. from the expression i give, and the way i look at him, very different. so funny, but surprisingly, also can feel abit different the way i look at him. haha.

the perfume guys, jeremy and eugene aint staying for long=( they will be gone soon=( sian. wouldnt laugh that much during work. wouldnt kena scolding from supervisor.

and dear is going in soon=(((( i dont want him to go in. Sobs.

2009-03-27T11:09:00.003+08:00

I am offered a place at NUS, FASS. Have I achieved my goal?? I dont know. I want take Psychology, but we have to bid for it, which is dumb, what if got limited vacancies, then I end up in some funny thing called Chinese Studies???

I was only happy for a short while. OK, I got the choice that I want. But will I get to study Psychology? Or should I just wait for NTU's offer?

2009-03-16T22:32:00.015+08:00

in the mini van, just the 4 of us, got tour guide and driver, shiok sia!! Oddy, the tour guide, damn nice and funny. too bad, didnt get to tip him coz we thought can see him on the last day, turns out NOPE!

on the elephant! Wa, damn scary can!! going downslope, i thought i was going to slip off the chair, and can you imagine the shit(literally) I will get into?? Ewww..

the baby elephant!! just born like 2 months ago!! Super cute la!

and it was nice of us to tip the elephant guy 500baht sia. damn good money for him. but hey, he showed us where he live and he has 2 young children, and only earns 2000baht a month. which is quite jialat?? but he was nice enough, so gave him tt. come to think of it, that is alot of money!!

the hotel lobby!! for a 3star hotel, this is not bad already! new de ma. dont expect air-con lobby, just fans! the whole hotel like got super alot of angmohs la!!

the sumptous dinner on the 1st day!!! damn shiok i tell you! just over S$30 per person, and there was giant prawns, sotong, lala, tom yam soup, pineapple rice blah blah!! eat until damn full man.

decided to go walk at the beach since we were all so full la. it was super nice to hear the sound of the waves, and somewhere along the beach, there were people lighting lanterns and they flew up to the sky. Saw a flying lantern earlier in the day, and guess like siao what it was. stupidly say a meteorite la, burning plane etc.

leaving our footsteps behind. the sand super nice to step on, quite fine i will say, and the night breeze was comforting!

then, we CAMWHORED like nobody's business!! Crazy. I was in a high mood, and keep laughing like crazy, maybe had a nice dinner, so laugh like siao also. Couldnt stop laughing lei me..

this is like the only successful jumpshot which we had. the rest, apparently, I was having problems with my ear hand foot coordination!! LOL.

Lol, i think i suggested this pose!! Damn cute la i think, I burst out laughing after quite some time, super joke to look him in the eye and pretend to kiss but not touching yet. LOL.

Another of the crazy pose i suggested!

anna and calvin say this one looks like glendon having difficulty carrying me la. maybe ba, after eating the dinner, just put on the pounds!

Another crazy pose by...... yep you guess it right, ME!!!

I like this picture, coz my left leg looks nice!! LOL.

2nd DAY!!! at the beach!

ok, this picture is also very nice!!just that my hair abit the messy..

calvin managed to take this super nice picture!! the spray looks damn cool.

camwhore again. LOL.

see the sun rays?? super cool man..

haha, us and our massage person!! LOL. we paid 800baht for a 2 hour massage, comprising of traditional thai and aromatherapy. Shiok ah the latter. the former, super funny, jab at all the unexpected places, make me shocked and stunned. I slept la!! But not like calvin who couldn't wake up when the person call him like 1-2 minutes la.

went to a bar near the hotel and ordered drinks. cheaper than Singapore, not even $5. pink lady, funny drink, margarita,bloody mary for us. the night before, took gulps of barcardi and ended up feeling damn warm and red.

the funny drink in a funny cup!!

my eyes like damn tired already lur..

hmm, similar pose during prom??

3rd DAY!! shopping for us, stoning for the guys-.-

hahaha, me and the funny kid specs. laugh like siao only sia. tried to bargain.

"nono, cannot, fixed already"

Me: "can can, we make you laugh like crazy know??"

LOL, in the end, failed. LOL.

in their tuktuks. I think this is better than the traditional or something like that?? the guys with the starbucks coffee!!

last picture we took at the super nice hotel.

It was great spending time at Phuket. very fun la! Great to not think about work, school related stuff etc. WHHEEEE.. I miss Phuket sia!

And I will be stationed at Parkway next month april!! Can come visit me and have lunch with me etc if you are bored!! ok, good about permanent, you get more income. Which will be super shiok!!Whheeee.. But dear cant come fetch me from work=( too out of the way for him=( Sobs:'(

2009-03-16T00:05:00.003+08:00

back from Phuket. will have pictures and details in the next post. getting the photos from anna girl first!!

It was super great fun!! Have not spend time with dear since he went to be a camp facilitator. nearly died for that 3 days he was away=(

2009-03-09T10:57:00.002+08:00

i am back!! haha.

the happy me of course!!thanks to all the dearies who left the tags there. damn sweet, and also super uber touched.

i am fine now, with everything!

parents are ok with it. giving me a reward. but keep saying i could have done better if i had not gotten myself involved in a BGR. wth

dear was sweet enough to get me happy food after work yesterday! famous amos cookies, haha. sorry i keep eating!

my class was also nice enough to wait for me to knock off and go back home together at cityhall. so honoured!